Healing begins... for now  

rm_gorilla062 51M
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7/14/2006 10:21 am

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7/14/2006 1:19 pm

Healing begins... for now

Ok I made it another year. the healing will begin now. The tattered remnants of my soul will begin to fuse themselves back together again. The empty feeling I have will fill enough for me to get thru until next year... another fathers day another birthday.... another year without knowing, without being able to show her I love her or know what she is growing into.
I like to think that she will be a perfect child.. I like to feel that she wants to know who I am ; to learn that I care about her and think about her. I can only wait and hope...
6 more years of waiting, 6 more years of the pain and torture.... then what happens?
I wish I could tell the future.. but then again maybe not... it could kill me. The hope and love I have for her keeps me holding on.... she is the brightest thing in my heart and mind what keeps my heart beating. I pray that she comes to me... gives me the chance to show her that I am and always have wanted to be her daddy.
I will rest this weekend.. too tired to do anything else... running out of gas fast.
To those that have thought of me the last few days thank you; for those taht have prayed God bless you. Your emails, calls and notes on my blog I am grateful for. I hope I do the same for you at times.
So for now follow me down the road.. the journey that is my life; however funny, treacherous or odd it may be.

cookiequeen1000 54F

7/14/2006 12:21 pm

*warm fuzzy smile* and big hug for my favorite gorilla. xoxo

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