To Lori...  

rm_gbe1964 54M
4 posts
5/10/2006 9:16 am

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5/21/2006 11:33 pm

To Lori...

the things I want to say to my wife, but since she's not here, I'll say them to you

How do you sleep? I mean really, how do you live with what you did? All those months when you were telling me "it's just you, you're being paranoid" or "what do you think you're going to find, I have nothing to hide?"
I want to know just how long you were lying to me. How many times were you and HER laughing at me and my arm dripping blood all over the place, how you fooled me into thinking I was just losing my mind and there was nothing going on? Were you prepared for me to kill myself from the hurt and confusion? Hoping for it?
How long did you plot and scheme and how many of those nights you never came home were you betraying me? The little trip back west to see the farm one last time? Were you making love there, in a plce I held as esspecially ours?
I have always been devoted, always cared for you, and loved you to the very core, and the really sad part is I still do.

I hope you are enjoying yourself.


blondietickler 44F
295 posts
5/10/2006 10:14 am

being bitter will get you no where. i hope you are able to move on eventually. this is just one of the many steps to regaining who you are. if venting helps, then vent on. hope the best for you.

Christinegirl126 55F

5/10/2006 10:27 am

I can feel the pain in your words. Ive been lied to and cheated on myself... I know how much it hurts.. The only thing that will help you, is time...Just give it some time. You deserve more...You'll have it someday...Don't give up.

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