rm_firehot2003 58M
2111 posts
4/22/2006 2:17 am

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5/7/2006 10:01 am


Fire has finally ended his relationship with my wife.A decision which was tough to come to but one which is right for me.Anyone who has been reading my blogs for the last few months will know that i was having marriage problems and that things were not great for me in the marriage.
However it is still tough to walk away from something that was my life for 21 years.Sad that i wont walk into the family home again feeling its home.Sad that my daughter wont have two parents who are at home for her.I could go on and on about hundreds of different sadnesses but i wont bore you with them.
I'm very happy that i can now live my life as me the real me and not someone who was manufactured or moulded into a person i didn't know.Yes the future is scary and yes i know i will have doubts but it right for me.
One person on this site has held my hand through all of this.She was there for me supported me,cared for me,loved me, gave advise that she probably found difficult to give.She gave me strength and energy when i was in need of it.She made me laugh and smile when things were really tough.She gave me hope, She gave me dreams,She was just brilliant.wickedwytch69 Susie thank you for being there for me and know that i love you
I dont know if i'll be blogging much as my heart is not in it at the moment and i dont know if i will have internet access where im going.But i do know i will be back and will miss you all and thank you for the supporting comments in the past they're really appreciated

love firehotxxxxxxxxxx

papyrina 52F
21133 posts
4/22/2006 3:45 am

fire hugs my special friend,things will improve all those thoughts of sadness will get better and you still love your daughter so she is not lost,go in peace and enjoy your life again

I'm a

i'm here to stay

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
4/22/2006 4:22 am

I echo macker1965's comment....

do what's right for YOU!

hugs4uagain 40F

4/22/2006 5:01 am

fire hunni!

remain strong and remember all of us ur friends are here for u no matter what as u have been here for us.take all the time u need cos as u have told me so many times there is light at the end of the tunnel and happiness.i`m thinking of u and sending u the biggest hugs ever!

love hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxx

shaker02 62F

4/22/2006 5:54 am

I hope you find happiness where ever you go. It's extremely hard and takes a long time to heal. You will eventually. You will have hills and valleys but you will find happiness again. For your child sake keep her close and make her #1 in your life. A good woman will respect and understand that. I wish you the best.

Take Care

sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
4/22/2006 6:42 am

If you are sure that this is the right thing for you, then great. I hope this is not going to turn into what happened to that dude who decided to break my heart by going back to his ex-gf now gf again It sucked on my part.

Sulabula 46F
12659 posts
4/22/2006 7:23 am

Fire...it's now the beginning of a new era...You can luck forward to happier times...Sometimes we have to move on to move forward...which is what you are doing...and I wish you and Wicked all tha luck in the world...you are both very special people to me

Sula xxx

Sula xxx

come visit my blog

sexyariesgirl 58F

4/22/2006 7:59 am


I only discovered your blog today, as I am totally new to this. I went through a divorce a little over two years ago after 27 years of marriage ....we had one son. It is the one of the hardest things you will ever do but also one of the most rewarding. I had no clue how bad things really were until I removed myself from the situation. Yes, there are regrets. Yes, I carry a certain amount of guilt about the failure of my marriage. But I refuse to let the guilt eat away at me. I am happier than I have been in MANY years. I have such a sense of freedom in many ways. I have discovered that I enjoy being on my own...yes it's hard sometimes...financially and emotionally. But I wouldn't change it. I have grown so much these two years...I have learned so many things about ME. We all deserve to be happy. I truly hope you find happiness....you seem to be such a sensitive, sensual man. I wish you the very best in your journey. And know that your friends here will be there for you....my online friends were all that saved my sanity!

Power To FOK

belfastbound 41F

4/22/2006 9:06 am

Fire i hope your future is full of smiles and happiness, take care.

saddletrampsk 55F

4/22/2006 12:25 pm

Big hugs and congrats on having the courage to change something you have been unhappy with for years and years..In regards to your daughter, she still has 2 parents who love her very much and she will know that you are alot happier..kids know these things..you are a good man fire..hurry back

mycin62 55F

4/23/2006 11:52 am

I have walked the road you are now traveling. I can't say it's easy, but it is worth the trip.

I wish you best of luck, stay strong, remember you have friends here who care about you.


Whispersoftly5 53F
15176 posts
4/23/2006 1:58 pm

Fire - I've read your blog here and there and always enjoy the person you seem to be. I'm sorry you're going through this and am glad a friend has been there for you. My thoughts are with you and I know you'll find happiness. Take good care!


LustyTaurus 49M
21253 posts
4/23/2006 7:06 pm

Fire...I know how painful going through this process is...I posted about my own struggles in this regard afew days ago. My thoughts are with you, and I hope you feel good all the way now.


Chele46H 50F

4/24/2006 8:25 am

Hi Fire

I wish your future to be filled with happiness, health and the best of luck. I know your decision will fill you with mixed emotions.

As for your daughter not having both her parents at home. I think you'll find she will support you both - kids are much stronger than you think. My kids have told me that although they are sad that their dad and I are no longer together, they find it easier to deal with the two of us being apart and happier than together and in crisis all the time.

My ex and I still have our stresses with each other at times but it's not nearly as bad as it used to be. Good job eh - otherwise who'd have put up his new shelves for him 2 weeks ago and rebuilt the bunk beds yesterday that he erm........ well lets say DIY is not his strong point LOL. In return, I've secured a driver for my van when I move next weekend!!!

Make sure you don't lose touch with your daughter and if it's possible, try to keep an amicable relationship with her mum too.

Take care.

Chele xx

rm_emmie234 53F
608 posts
4/26/2006 3:00 am


HBowt2 60F

4/26/2006 4:19 pm

you know where i am if you need to talk fire....or walk...or have a coffee....take care of you...

caressmewell 54F

4/26/2006 6:38 pm

I wish you all the best. I hope soon that you will feel like blogging so that we can see where your new road will lead you. I know that it feels strange now but soon you will realize that a new world will be open to you. You will be in my thoughts.

shar1 56F
606 posts
4/29/2006 1:05 am

Fire..my love only came across your blog. Wish you all the best my love, ' to thine own self be true'. You know where l am if l can dop anything... talk, listen... just being there.

Your in my thoughts hun.

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