the rise and fall  

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11/17/2005 6:33 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

the rise and fall


8:00 and its still snowin like its the middle of november... oh ...it is.
query do the young hotties get paid a commision to e-mail me and then route me to a "personal site" only to "suggest I join""its so easy" (yeah and only cost's 29.95 a month)
What kind of shmuck am I presenting here? So i'm just some desperate fuckin moron chasing pussy all over the world wide web? C'mon ladies, my stupidity level doesn't rise in correlation to my penis! (i despise a heartless cunt)sorry i had to use that term, i dont until its absolutly called for.And let me preempt the rush of hate mail by saying: YES the world is full of souless pricks who deserve nothing more than a savage fuck in the ass with a freshly used toilet brush.Now all anger aside, I did read one profile today of a beautiful woman who also seems to have a gen u wine beating heart, a mind of her own, and the gift of language to boot.TOO bad she's way out of my league.(in retrospect send me your hate mail i need a diversion)
My thoughts are in whiplash mode this morning, so hang on.I really do like the first snow of the season, but the reality sets in moments later that a month from now i'll be bitchin just like everyone else.I don't like that about myself.Being like so many unhappy dogs left out chained to a post in the yard with no one to play with. I recognize the negativity in myself and actively look for ways to rid my thoughts and feelings of it, but it helps to have someone else with joy and lust for life around just to remind me what I was like in my former self. "What changed" you ask? Nothing, just life creeping ever onward. I've lived a lot of life in my short time,from two kids, to being homeless(by my own choice),to marriage and a long term job.I sometimes have the regrets, and sometimes I wouldn't change a thing. But in my alone times I ache for more, I'm risking everything to have my fantasies.Yeah I know, what a piss poor job I'm doing. 18 million horny people and I can't get laid.Were this a big city, I could just dip it in cement and hit up the nearest whore but...yuk. I'm really in this for more than just easy pussy.A mind and body without the trappings of "solve my problems","be my paycheck","fulfill my demands".I suppose it was easier when I waltzed thru life without my conscience, but i'm trying to introduce the two halves of myself to each other. WHERE ARE YOU. I'm not seeking salvation here just some comfort in the closeness that two naked bodies (in motion)provides.

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