People Really Sux  

rm_eatspussy66 47M
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7/13/2006 2:48 pm

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7/14/2006 6:13 pm

People Really Sux

My biggest issue is that I take things at face value, I *believe* what people say I have no clue as to why I do, its just the biggest character flaw that I have, and I am always on the short end of the stick. I can only *give* so much and never get anything in return.

Its really funny tho, I set myself up for disaster each and every time. I think I become more and more jaded each day. I do so many things for so many different people never asking anything in return, and you know what, thats exactly what I get in return, nothing. The only thing that never fails me is the *music* its the only thing that I could ever count on, and I am sure that is the only thing that I will ever have, and thats fine.

I put my ass on the line a lot of the time for a lot of people, and I dont even get a fucking thank you? But yet they ask me to do *more*? Dont get me wrong, I have met some very awesome people I really have.

I feel so used and abused, people fucking with my emotions, just for their own gains say one thing and do another I really dont know. Breaks my heart, how some people in this world can think about noting but themselves when someone else is doing nothing but giving everything in the world for others. What happened to common courtesy? Oh I forgot this is the 21st century, no one gives a fuck about how others feel.

People that know me know how loyal and would do anything in the world for them, I am just really fucking tired of being the odd man out. The nice guy, the *friend* that no one really gives a shit about cept when they want something, then I am their best friend but I am the one that has *issues* Ya, I will agree that I have issues, my issue is that I care, and I care way too fucking much. SO that makes me the bad guy I really dont understand how I can be the bad guy when all I do is give.

I have been gutted 2 times in the last 6 months. And thats 2 times too many. Call me what you will, tell me I have problems, tell me I am arrogant, or whatever other insult you can come up with, but you just really miss the mark. You think all that ya want about me, I could care less, you just think you understand me, most people do not have the intellect to understand me.

I really do not know what more I can say. I have done everything possible for as many people as I can, and I dont get a fucking thing in return? I dont think thats very fair, oh I get thrown a bone every now and then, but I cant live on bones I need some meat, I need what I will *never* get I need someone to be able to give as much as I do, and people, that is *never* gonna happen, people are not capable of giving whats inside because they are so fucking scared of the truth.

I *do* know one thing, every morning I wake up, I look at myself in the mirror and feel damn good about myself because I know what I am, and I know my heart. I know what is inside me. I know most people cant do that, they are way to caught up in their own little fantasies about life and doing whats good for themselves. Good for you, it all will come out in the end, and I know where I will be standing. Karma is a mother fucker, and I know first hand it comes back on ya 100 times over.

I am a man, I am a man of my word, I am a man that can and does express himself, I am a man that is willing to give everything in the world to anyone. But I am also a man that is tired of being hurt when I did noting but give.

Axe out!

Cozy_Red 51F

7/13/2006 5:25 pm

Have you ever read "The Giving Tree" by Shel Silverstein? I dont know how it applies to your situation... but it will take yer mind off the clock!

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