A rainy and depressing day  

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1/29/2006 10:35 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

A rainy and depressing day


Well today was one of those days that you just want to stay under the covers. It's Sunday, dreary, rainy, and not exactly your typical January day. Not a whole lot going on. Read the Sunday paper, looking for a job. The same routine for every Sunday for the last few years. The job market in my area has been very frustrating. Sometimes I am not sure I'll ever be able to get back to work. That scares the bejesus out of me. My partner disappeared for most of the day! I wasn't sure I was going to get my truck started. When it rains alot the moisture sets in on the spark plug wires, which causes the truck to not start. This has been going on off and on for awhile now, haven't really had the money to get it fixed. I spent alot of my time today interacting in my college on-lie courses. I graduate in 8 weeks. I am so excited. This education had better help me land a good job.

My partner and I have had a very strained relationship these last few months. I feel really bad that he has had to support me. Actually, it makes me sick. We have been together almost nine years. I love him dearly, but am so frustrated. We never have sex. I think the last time we had actual sex was back in August. Oh, we engage in foreplay all the time, but actual sex is almost nonexistant. It's not something I have to have, but once in a while would be nice. There's times I have thought about being with another, but I just can't bring myself to do that. It just wouldn't be right. I get offers all the time. I could probably be a big whore if I wanted to, but I guess It's better this way, at least alot safer.

Well, I guess that's all I feel like talking about right now, god knows I could go on forever, but I will just save that for another day.

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