Critical Mass??  

rm_dizzyandfun 49F
1211 posts
12/28/2005 4:08 am

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Critical Mass??

Yesterday was, I think, a baaad day.
I had closed the office with the idea of just blanking everything out till driving myself round the bend. Christmas did that for me. Total fun and no thought of work.
Monday I knew I had to meet with 2 seperate clients the nextmorning - one a major property developer who has hired me for all his urbanizations´ management, and the other an investor from another property developer. I d put in an awful lot of work on both ( the first one almost a year of meetings - trips - late night business calls, the whole lot). Monday..ahh sweet Monday.. I had a complete crisis of confidence. Literally imploded. Meltdown. Was awake all night and physically sick in the morning. Head was missing. Blank. Even my own notes made no sense to me.
Now I KNOW (usually) the next words coming out of Mr Hummers mouth, but yesterday - zilch. I felt like a zombie for 3 and a half hours. First off he rejected my furniture options. Great start. Grilled me for ages on the complete projections 2006 thru 2008 (normally I can give as good as I get but not yesterday). Then he put me in his car and we went off to see one of his Business Centres and another interior designer ( who, between the lines, he told me he "prefered" me to do business with. Point taken Mr H. He d decided that even before he d seen the artwork. Ho Hum. In the end, I dont know if I came across as bad as I felt, but right now..I just hope I did nt do too much damage!
I traipsed off to the second meeting feeling even worse. Nerves completely shot and again, a mental block. This guy is looking to spend 16m depending on my figures and projections. Fucks sake. Thank God the developer had taken him for lunch - he had a happy happy face on which helped, and I think he was probably half pissed too. I didnt even SHOW him the funiture pics: just told him the cost. I got through the figures and questions stage ( we d done it all before so I took this as a "who am I dealing with" type of meeting seeing as we d never met). His last words were he was looking to sign a 5 year contract with me..but I have to wait 48 hours for confirmation.
Do I feel good about it?? No. Do I feel good about either of the meetings?? Fuck no.
By this time it was 8pm and I was stuck at the other end of the Coast. My dearly (sometimes) beloved brother was supposed to collect me. I called him. He was ( suprise suprise) in a pub with a few beers under his belt. So that left me miles and miles from home, feeling like something a snail might leave behind, with no idea where to find a cab. And pissed off knowing it would cost me a hell of a lot of money for the trip! Which it damn well DID.

Also has left me with the question of why did that happen to me after so much effort and hard work? Why crash on such an important day?

Tomorrow will be a long one..waiting to see if the investor gives me the go ahead or not. My part of the deal is nothing like 16m ( I wish!!) but I dont think the developer will love me quite as much if I ve blown the sale on him.

Mr H .. well I have a few days to come up with something starling and to my usual standard..and hope he doesnt analyse the meeting too much.

Right now I m going for a walk on the beach with Benji..try and find some peace with myself. If thats at all possible...

Diz xx

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
12/28/2005 8:04 am

peace is aways possible within yourself ....

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

rm_dizzyandfun 49F
752 posts
12/28/2005 12:00 pm

Goddess..ahh..depends on how much you can dig out when you need it.
And thanks xx

AlbertPrince 59M

12/29/2005 10:54 am

You should have gone for that walk the night before.

rm_dizzyandfun 49F
752 posts
12/29/2005 12:39 pm

Al Honey...I wasnt thinking straight enough to have even considered it. xx xx


red_boke 52M

1/6/2006 6:16 pm

Que pena no poder leerte en español ...

Feliz año 2006

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