I just broke my own heart again...  

rm_cockmerollme 46F
1607 posts
4/7/2006 7:49 pm

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8/26/2006 8:49 am

I just broke my own heart again...

I keep asking for it

I keep going back to the well to see if there is anything down there

and I'm totally surprised

breathlessly surprised

when there is nothing down there

and I'm empty again

I saw this coming

and could not stop it

I saw this coming

and wouldn't step aside

I just took it on the chin again
And I never would have told him things
If I'd known I wasn't



ticktock500 45M

4/8/2006 12:20 am

i wish i could do more than sigh and nod my head.
but i know exactly what you mean
(well, not exactly)

rm_art_persists 52M
1789 posts
4/8/2006 10:25 am

I'm feeling a little ornery today. Stand up and be strong yet giving. In the end we think weakness is giving when what it really is is weakness... Your heart should not be on your sleeve, it belongs in your chest.


4/8/2006 11:45 pm

Well I don't guess when it's all so freshly happened like that, that me saying this will give you any feeling of reassurance at all but I think that those of us actively seeking continue to repeat what seem like endless variations on this same theme.

It's just simply what happens when you hopefully seek but do not find. And of course knowing that doesn't really seem to lessen the blow the next time it happens. Again.

But just know that I feel for you and that I also just got plunked into a cyber version of that same boat not but 10 minutes ago so as much as I can be at the present moment I'm right there with you on this.

And I'd almost bet that this ain't the last time it's going to happen to any of us. But we can always hope.

Hugs and a cleverly concealed lump in my sweatpants

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rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
4/9/2006 9:03 pm

sorry to hear pain..
hear pain..
it gets easier...

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

rm_cockmerollme 46F
1223 posts
4/11/2006 11:39 pm

Too old for it to get easier...

Just gonna shut down.


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