please help me!!!  

rm_chanda69 49F
648 posts
6/29/2006 8:39 am

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please help me!!!

OK i need some feed back here--
this is the email i sent L.G. may 18th (if you dont know who L.G. is- read back dont ask now please) this is someone i have been closer to than ANYONE. i have told him many things that no one else knew. the longer this goes on, the harder it if i am wrong, i want to know. i am prepared to grovel....

well i don't know if you're going to be speaking to me now or not. I'm not sure why you're mad at ME though. because of something i told my MOTHER??? about my BROTHER???? i just know I'm sick of feeling like I'm in the middle of a pissing contest where neither of the contestants will discuss the rules with each other or even admit they are in it!!!! i have loved you since the first day i met you & i always will. what that means to me is also accepting that there are things about you that i don't like much. there are opinions you have that i don't share, but that is my right, & i have accepted that they are a part of you & i love you anyway. but something you have to remember is S***** is my BROTHER. the ONLY blood sibling i will ever have. that doesn't mean i like everything about him, & i can see & accept his faults & shortcomings & love him anyway. none of us are perfect, including me( GOD KNOWS!!) but i will not be in the middle ANY MORE! according to S***** you don't want him to move, & you haven't expressed to him any of the dissatisfaction you have told me about at length.
i cant help but wonder, if you aren't calling me to bitch about H***** or S******, will you still call, & if you do, what will you say? I'm not saying its all there is to our conversations, but since they moved in there hasn't been one conversation that you haven't spent a significant amount of time hashing out the problems there. so how much have you said about it to S******?
i also wonder with all this being said, will you still consider yourself my friend? i don't think I've ever really told you off before but believe me had you answered the phone when i left the message last night that would have changed. there have been times before that you have treated me with a total lack of respect due any human, & i just let it slide & chalked it up as unintentional & part of who you are. there have been times (like last night)had someone treated YOU that way, you would have been ready to rip out their throat, so why do you apparently believe it is acceptable for you to dish it out? after the events in my life the last 7 years, i will not be treated that way any more. so if that is the way you intend to terminate conversations with me when you have a hair up your ass, then don't call in the first place. i would NEVER treat you that way & will accept nothing less from anyone in my life, including you.
so when you decide to get your head out of your ass, call me. just know that weather you call me again or not, you have been a very important part of my life for a very long time, & i will always love you, no matter what. so if it takes a while before i hear from you again, O.K. when i do, i will assume we are still friends & will welcome you with open arms.
your kajira, but no ones doormat.

the pic is the one i sent with it


OcelotScratch 49M
286 posts
6/29/2006 7:29 pm

Good luck with this. It sounds like you have a long way to go before you reach groveling.

rm_chanda69 49F
418 posts
6/29/2006 7:35 pm

    Quoting OcelotScratch:
    Good luck with this. It sounds like you have a long way to go before you reach groveling.
never was any good at it anyway...



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