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rm_candu4u2me 54F
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7/17/2006 7:55 pm
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THANKSGIVING

Wel another thanksgiving has come and gone and with that the sool weather has finally set in. I didnt realize how much i hated the cool air. It was so nice nad warm on Friday then the rain and it has been overcast nad cold since. Thanksgiving always gives me time to reflect on the good in my life that i am thankful for. My kids..they are my life, they are who i get up every morning for, they are who i push myself to not end it all. They are 3 boys i am so glad and overwelmed to have in my life. My hubby...he has his moments but no matter what i do or say he always loves me. At times I felt I settled but lately i feel i made the right choice. I have a few friends that have stood by during the rough times and for them i am thankful of their freindships. I look back on the turmoil of MM and am glad I am out of the site now. I know who my friends are and who pretended to be friends...and i dont need pretend friends. I am thankful for the new friendship I am making. I wish you all a very good life, a very good holiday season coming up. Hugs to you all.


DISCRETION
I have to voice my opinion on something that has recently bothered me. It seems that the word discretion is no longer in use. When I agree to meet up with someone I point blank say that i am married so i must be DISCRETE. This is ok with the other person. When I chat with friends on IM they all know that discretion is a must, that what I tell them or they tell me remains with me/them. I had this person on chat IM and am now glad that I have deleted him off. He had made a point of coming into the room today and brag about a woman he had hooked up with on AdultFriendFinder the night before and "fucked" so much it will last him a week and that he is so sore. Ok first of all...TMI. Secondly does he not know the phrase " I will NOT kiss and tell." If I was to have met this person I would be extremely pissed that my business was being broadcast all over a chatroom just so this guy could have bragging rights. It is disgusting!!!!!! If I was any woman that was going to make plans on meeting with this man I would have second thoughts on doingso. He doesnt realize that he is now ruining his chance for any woman to hok up with him because he cant be trusted.

We also have another man in the room that we all call a pig, a dog because he too brags but he is not even on the same level as this guy that I had previously mentioned. He has more class because he hasnt even mentioned the women he has been with so no one even knows who he is talking about. We just know that he is bragging baout getting some or whatever he brags about. I give this man credit for having at least a bit of discretion. As for this other person I have lost ALL respect for him and there is no chance of ever getting that respect earned back.

NETFRIENDSHIPS

I have been visiting this site that I belonged to then deleted the profile because I didnt think the site was for me. Well after i left MM I decided to join back up. I was bored, wanted to see what they had to offer again. Well I love it. I have made so many friends at netfrindships. You dont feel the pressure to go to private chat on there or to do anything else you dont want to. THey have blogs, quizes, games and a forum that I havent gotten evem half way thru reading yet...and doubt I will. Well just wanted to keep you posted nad if you ddrop by netfriendships.com look me up...candu4u...

SEPERATION

As some of you know I am recently separated from Hubby...about 4 months now. About 2 weeks ago we talked and decided to maybe go slow and work things out. I dint want to give up on my marriage because I have 3 wonderful boys that love their dad so much and look up to him like he can do no wrong. So the past 4-5 days he has been spending more time with us. I thought it was going well. Until yesterday. He seemed to be his old moody self again and had the kids and myself walking around like we were on eggshells. I should have realized and asked him to go back to his place but I didn't.

Last night he blew at our oldest son. He just lost it. I had seen anger in him I had never seen before and it even frightened me. It also didn't help that the son just wouldn't be quiet...but he had to keep commenting. So after 10 minutes of rage he hit him. Something that hubby has NEVER EVER done the whole time we were together. He didn't even like spanking the kids growing up. So I told him to leave. After a few hours of crying and trying to get the son calmed and to the point that he knew I loved him and that his dad did to..hubby calls. Wants to speak to the son but Josh didn't want to. SO we hung up and I turned the phone off.

I knew hubby was hurting too cause I could tell in his voice but I didn't care, I had a son to deal with. Joshua calmed down enough and for the first time in 3 years since he grew up...he is 12 now....he gave me a hug before going to bed. We had a long talk too before he went. This morning his dad called to see how he was and told him he loved him...to late as far



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