Something a little beyond the profile...  

rm_brian_donoho 44M
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8/26/2005 11:21 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Something a little beyond the profile...

What do you do when you don't quite fit in? Everyone you know is married, engaged, or on the way there. Their lives are consumed by children and responsibilities and concerns I have no connection to. I'm told I'm supposed to want these things. I'm tolsd this life is an eventuality. I'm not convinced.

I was married (for a year) because I thought I should be. I loved her with everything I had, but it wasn't enough. I just wasn't what she wanted. I wasn't prepared to be a good husband. She lost patience as I was growing into one and I don't blame her. Through that process I really asked myself, is this what I really want or what I'm told I should want? I spend a lot of time by myself and I like that. I'm not particularly big on codependance. When I envision sharing my life with someone its as Equal Partners. We each have and are responsible for our own lives, are free to come and go as we please, and are together through conscious choice not some unconditional / unrealistic commitment.

I don't believe in unconditional love. No matter how much you love someone, that love can be destroyed. With this understanding, having a relationship... a connection, I consciously give my all to means so much more.

I'm here to explore a very specific facet of my life that hasn't gotten the time and care it deserves. If I want to get off I don't really need any help. I want to share heat and passion and lust and have some good old fashioned fun.

Play with me?

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