The stripping of Clark Kent  

rm_bri28ma 40M
256 posts
2/4/2006 6:33 am

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The stripping of Clark Kent

So, a few of you out there ask why I call myself a geek, and how I reconcile that with how I look (let me try and not be too conceited here). Growing up, I never really had any friends...throughout grade school and high school I was pretty much a social hermit (that partially why I picked up so many hobbies). By the time I was first kissed, I was 17. That really didn't help, though...I was still pretty (or really) clueless. I really couldn't concieve of someone being attracted to my personality, let alone my body. Even after Dez (see my blog below ), I just didn't get it.
At the same time of me, there was a part of me that was VERY sexual and very comfortable with my sexuality (Portnoy without the horrible issues with women ). Though I vowed to be celibate for the first year of college (I made a promise with myself to concentrate on getting a good social life and re-discovering myself first), I was intregued by an advertisement I saw one day for a nude model. The art classes had a horrible time finding male models to pose, and were looking for one. The pay was pitiful ($8/hour), but I was pretty interested. My younger brother finally pushed my over the edge...he always the extrovert of the family.
So...naked I got. In front of 20 some people. My legs actually shook I was so nervous. A guy actually stormed out of the room, yelling that he didn't sign on to see naked guys...
It wasn't a horrible experience at all. I know several of the artists outside of class (it's a verrry small college and hard not to) so while I was naked, we spent many sessions joking about people they knew who had no belly buttons, drawing penises (EVERY drawing had only a smudge for a crotch ), etc. I did this for all of my 4 years at college, and really came to love it. Professors and students working on the theses requested me as a model...I really began to be comfortable in my own skin...and I LOVED being in my own skin in public. Still, I never quite equated this with sexuality--there always a kind of professional barrier between my public nudity and eroticism.
After college, I began to model for photographers and enjoyed this, but still, no eroticism. Only lately have I even become aware of people looking at me in THAT way. I'd never felt like I was objectified (in a good way), but I've started to notice women looking at me in the gym, walking down the sidewalk...etc. It's a great feeling! I've been oblivious for so long. Part of this, I think, is the confidence I have in my body. Like I've said before, many female friends call me Clark Kent. Mild-mannered by day...but when the tie comes off....
So, there it is. When I make grand statements about exhibitionism, know that I'm still testing the waters. But also know I'm finally understanding that I have something to share under my public persona...and I love to show it off!

rm_Ellenback 59F
966 posts
2/7/2006 3:44 pm

LOL Bri, take a look at the visitors to your blog...all 40 year old women (with a few guys thrown in) just drooling over you.

You have NOTHING to worry about, just like when you were stumbling over your words with Des about her behind, hon...hemmena hemmena hemmena WOOF LOL


rm_bri28ma 40M
357 posts
2/8/2006 7:02 am

HAHAHA...I just checked the visitors to my blog. You're right. I'm in heaven. The idea of older women lusting after me makes me all warm and fuzzy inside . Hmmmm...maybe I'll write about one of my all time fantasies.... -Bri
ps. LOL and thanks for the hemmenas

rm_lucytart 51F
590 posts
2/9/2006 11:28 pm

Ah, a geek that doesn't realize, or only recently realizes, that he's one HOT STUD! I can feel your sensuality, your pose, I can feel your muscles as I run my hands over your body. I'll be one of those rare women, older I suspect, drooling over your HOT body! Hmm, I generally don't write to profiles - you may make me break my rule!

P.S. I'm a geek, too - had to explain a reference to "7 of 9" to another woman today. Talk about geek!

rm_bri28ma 40M
357 posts
2/10/2006 7:28 am

HAHA Lucy, yup that's geeky...but I just watched First Contact the other day and couldn't help thinking the female antagonist at the end was HOT. Now THAT's geeky! Maybe you need a shirt that says I (heart) geeks . -bri

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