rm_abutoo2 45M
708 posts
8/14/2006 9:49 pm

Last Read:
8/19/2006 4:40 pm


I have none right now, so I'm just going to ramble and see where I go with this.

I talked with a buddy of mine last night. Damn but he was so positive and full of love and life. I coulnd't help but feel better for that hour we stood around smoking.
He managed to take everything that I was feeling upset about and turn it into a monumental leap of caring and compassion. What a guy. Thanks for being there bud. I know you're not going to read this, but thanks.
Positive attitude creates a positive atmosphere. I told him how I was feelin', and he knows me well enough to know some of my motives. And he kept coming back with man... you're a great guy because your reasons for letting him go shows that you have the best interest of your child at heart. If you kept him here, knowing that you think it's not the best thing for him... well that would be really selfish and put you above your child.

(Damn, but I never looked at it like that).

Now, what you gotta do is you gotta SHOW him that you care. Write a letter a week, let him know how you feel about missing him. It won't mean much to him now, but come a day that he'll know you wanted to be there. And that will mean the world to him.
Wow, So I did... today I wrote my boy a letter. Not to his Mom, but to him. I told him that I was really excited he's learning to ride a bike and I'm so proud of him. He fell of once or twice, got mad and kicked it and called it a "stupid bike." but he got back on. That's the true measure of a man isn't it? getting back up after we fall down and trying again. I told him to give his mom a hug and kiss and be a good boy I'll write him again next week.
Felt better for doing that. Still kinda confused and lost without him, but doing something, anything was good. Still working out the phone situation to call the UK.
Yahoo's got the call thingie on IM but I couldn't get it to do the dang international call. Called US numbers just fine. After two hours of trying every combination of international codes I gave up and sent Yahoo an e-mail. hopefully Tuesday it's working. Or I can get it working.

Not only that but I told a woman in my life today to piss off. Tired of the shit. She has to keep me a secret from her boyfriend. Hell, I'm not sleeping with her and I'm not going to be a "dirty little secret" for any reason. The thing she doesn't seem to understand is that she seeks waaaaaaaay too much of her emotional support from me. If this guy is so f'n special, let her get that support from him. Advice is one thing, but coming over to my house and damn near fucking me and then going back to him, was too much.
After laying down the law her number came out of my cell phone. And after the fairly straight and to the point text messages I sent her I doubt she's going to rush back here for friendship. I don't have to hide my friendships from anyone, and if I do have to hide them... well I probably need to question that relationship.
So, if I see her... well, I may be civil. maybe not depends on how I'm feeling. I'm not a hostage for her amusement. So, self-empowered and not quite as lonely, but at least I'm trying to stand up for myself, lol. Kinda hard with sexy, leggy women in mini-skirts. But, after they piss you off bad enough they become very unattractive.

OboesHonedIambs 63F

8/14/2006 11:12 pm

"I don't have to hide my friendships from anyone, and if I do have to hide them... well I probably need to question that relationship. "

You got that right! That's a helluv a lesson for anyone to learn! I wish more people got that about people in their lives.

And when/if you see that gal again, be civil - always be civil.

Instant Human -- Just Add Coffee

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/15/2006 4:16 am:
I agree with you on the civility. It's hard sometimes, but it's not impossible. And it also shows that "maturity" level.


8/15/2006 3:49 am

Sounds like you are moving forward darlin'. That's a great thing. Your friend is right about writing your son. Email him, write him, whatever it takes..... My ex only lives 7 miles from my son and he never sees him and only calls him once in a while. I know firsthand what a little bit of correspondence can do. Your son will look forward to those letters/emails and will know how much you love him.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/15/2006 4:16 am:
that's encouraging to hear. Thank you.

free2chose2 67F

8/15/2006 4:53 am

Yes, keep the letters going to your son, hopefully yahoo will update for you. A child needs to know their parent cares and is concerned about him even if physical contact due to distance not possible.It will mean alot in his development.

As to the woman. Was the man in her life when you met her and were you made aware of that relationship? I would have different replies once full understanding available. If you knew,ohhhhhhhh well. If you didn't, shame on her for not being totally honest.

Don't worry, be Happy

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/15/2006 7:00 am:
oh yeah, you'd have to go back about 3 weeks and read the posts there. It's all explained, lol I'm not gonna dig up bones for her.

rm_AnOddGirl 58F
3469 posts
8/15/2006 5:52 am

You've got a good friend, your lucky enough to have someone you respect to kick your butt. Not everyone is that lucky.
One thing I've learned over the last couple years, what we remember most from our childhood is the Memories of fishing with dad, seeing a movie with mom, not presents. Each letter you write your son gives him that and more!

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/15/2006 7:02 am:
yeah, he's a great guy. Most of my friends, the close ones, are all truly great too. wanna be my friend?

NSAAddict 43F

8/15/2006 10:39 am

I'm glad you've got such a smart and caring friend As for the other one who wants to hide your relationship, you did what's best for you, nothing good can come from that and clearly she's using you for the emotional support she can't find with her b/f and that's just wrong.

rm_abutoo2 replies on 8/15/2006 11:08 am:
what's the point having a bf or gf that isn't your best friend? Isn't that just a fuck buddy?

Become a member to create a blog