Good goddamn it's been awhile  

rm_TwistedWhore 37F
134 posts
8/18/2005 1:48 am

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Good goddamn it's been awhile


Holy hell. The past 2 months have been a rollercoaster ride of emotional torment and anguish. Heartbreak and healing, and various stages of in-between.

After my fathers death, I indulged excessively in the drink, the nose candy, all forms of pills, only to realize the error of my ways. I slept through an entire week only leaving the cozy confines of my bed for bathroom breaks. Fortunately, I ran out of Ambien, Sonata, and Soma, and was thus forced to awaken and deal with life, and the passing of my father.

For the past 3 weeks I've been on the road, from Texas to the Florida Keys and back. It has been cathartic to say the least, if not somewhat unsettling as well.

I find myself back here in Austin, blogging my life, or lack thereof, away. I had quit my job and am still unemployed. Though being broke is rather boring, my gainful unemployment has its perks.

I'm currently looking for a job to save up enough money for a 6 month roadtrip across America. Seeing the US was never high on my list of priorities, but I have an itch to become a rolling stone, and so it must be fulfilled.

One thing I've gleaned from the death of my father is that life is much too short to spend it at some bs 9-5 job I hate. Hence my plans for travel.

simplysex1976 41M

8/18/2005 7:16 am

After reading your blogs I feel that I can relate. Rather not get into it here but would love to chat sometime.

Your travel plans are perfect. What you will learn and experience on an adventure like that is invaluable. The best piece of advice that I have ever been given is to "do it while you can". Sounds like the time is now for you!

Hope to hear from you.


wickedclown1951 67M
6 posts
8/19/2005 1:10 pm

You have been through a lot, but it nature's way. Kids are supposed to bury their parents, thats the way life works, its not easy or fair sometimes but it is what it is. I really believe in the saying "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" and you are still with us. Now get your ass in gear and go on your trip, not for your father or family and not for those of us who sit out here in the void and read your life but do it for you. I will offer no advice, its not my place to do that, I just hope you find some peace and maybe someone who will love you and who you can trust enough to love back. I do hope you are able to tell us all about you travels...I would just like to make sure you are OK...OK?


rm_lpdrago 40M
2 posts
8/20/2005 8:51 pm

im so sorry to hear...my condolences to u and ur family~ hope u can be strong... and if u have faith in God...u will know he is in good hands now... be strong~...draw strength from where strength is drawn.


lovepootypoo222 52M
2 posts
8/24/2005 8:48 pm

It is sad live has been cruel to you. However, I love your outlook. You are a positive person who seems to find a positive with every negative. Keep it up something good will come your way because of it. If you evr want to chat or dinner e-mail me at AdultFriendFinder.com . I would relish the opportunity to meet someone with the same positive attitude.


lovepootypoo222 52M
2 posts
8/24/2005 8:50 pm

It is sad live has been cruel to you. However, I love your outlook. You are a positive person who seems to find a positive with every negative. Keep it up something good will come your way because of it. I would relish the opportunity to meet someone with the same positive attitude.


boredtechguy105 39M

9/2/2005 7:51 pm

It's good that you can talk about this. If I were in the same situation, I couldn't. Try to take things slow, and remember you're not in a race to prove anything. Whatever your plans turn into, stay safe.


rm_BugiltAustin 38M
1 post
9/9/2005 11:03 pm

Great to have you back...


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