rm_T1173 47F
278 posts
5/8/2006 5:42 am

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11/13/2006 5:51 am


Well Im back,I dont know for how long but Im here. While I was gone I thought Id get my head together but I didnt. I guess its not as easy as I thought it would be. Actually im not any better then what I was when I left for my little break. lol! Oh well life is what you make it so they say. Im still struggeling with all the worries and coffusion of my life I just cant seem to get it straight. But im not gonna stop trying,im thinking its time maybe to try another way to do this time left in my life. All Id like is to be is happy.

sexwyounow 52M

5/8/2006 6:44 am

Hey T!!!!

Sorry to hear that things are still confusing for you. You know you can email me with your worries and concerns!!!

I would help you in anyway I could. I am not having such a good time in my life right now either but that does not mean I should give up.
Sounds like you are not giving up either. Just looking for another way to figure things out. If one way doesn't work try another.

I have become so close to you in our email exchanges. Sometimes I think I can almost feel your pain. Isn't that odd since we have never met or talked or anything. Must be because we shared so many things together.

Your friend,


sexwyounow 52M

5/8/2006 7:00 am

P.S. T

No it is not easy to get out of whatever rut a person is in their life. I have been working for years to undo all the damage I did when I was using but I am still clean after 15 years so that has to say something for what I want out of life. Sometimes I think that some people are tested more than the average person. That is how I feel about my entire life.

I was physically and verbally abused by my father. I destroyed ten years of my life using hard drugs and alcohol and I can't ever get those years back. My mother is not on this earth and there is nothing I can do about that. My blog title is stated that way for a reason. Some things you CAN change in your life but life will throw you a lot of shit your way that you have no control over. The only thing you really have absolute control over is YOURSELF!!!!


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