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rm_SoSexySoNice 52M
328 posts
8/2/2006 6:40 am

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10/22/2007 4:33 am

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I have done crazy things in life, some I have liked and some not. I try not to regret what I've done (not that I always succeed) This picture reminds me one one of those things. I had this girl I really loved. Had been together for five years, and now she had decided to abandon me. I decided to take her out for a week long holiday, to see if we could recover the magic. We visited some really nice places, met some nice people and had a really nice time. Yet all the time it was clear she wanted to leave me. We were compatible (I thought) and in love. Maybe we were too much in love. Lifes little disapointments came to haunt us.

It is strange as to how in a really great relationship the little things take on big meaning. I used to like the way she sleeps next to me, the smile she had, the flash in her eyes when she was mad at me, the way she would unconsiously put her arm through mine when we were walking together. And I think I loved the peace we had, the understanding that we were, and we would be. Strange, even when she was leaving me she still loved me. But she thought she deserved better. Was I that bad, or unworthy? Sometimes I think I still love her, sometimes I'm sure I don't.

Don't get me wrong. I do not regret any of that period. Miss it maybe. I am not even sure I want her back. Truly speaking, I am not even sure I can avoid having her back if she was to ask.

'Sentimental old fool', you would say. Maybe. But maybe thats what makes life so interesting. the pleasures, the pains, the disapointments, the successes. That buz of feeling when you have finally succeeded in something. That heartache when you have lost...

Maybe I am a sentimental old fool after all.

WoolyInureSlues 30M
1459 posts
3/28/2011 9:37 am

Better to love and loose than never to have loved at all.

rm_naive20072 39F
3 posts
8/29/2007 5:13 am

sometimes u have to let go of someone u love or think u do. They say if they come back then it was for real. Maybe. But u have to go with ur gut and be sure that its what u really want.
Now is what counts not then.

rm_SoSexySoNice 52M
260 posts
8/2/2006 8:07 am

Thanks sweetheart

2daycowboywanted 46F

8/2/2006 7:45 am

Nice to have wonderful memories isnt it. Time goes on and people grow up - one might have wonderful memories but that is what they are memories. Feel wonderful for the things you have now.

Until later

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