Lonely lonely, lonely....  

rm_RoyDs 47M
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1/23/2006 4:01 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Lonely lonely, lonely....

I shouldn't be this lonely. I have never felt like this before. I feel so alone. I guess that's why I'm here...

Just me and my computer right?

I need companionship. Friends just aren't cutting it. I need to be held and wanted. I am not used to being alone. I have people around me all the time usually. Friends or family, both sometimes.

Got some bad news today. Well, for me it's bad. For the two of them it's fine. Happy good smiles all around.

I miss her touch, her smell, her laughter, just her voice in general. everything really.

...and I guess I always will.

Marriage. Who knew I would be so hurt when I heard? I guess it's cause it seems so final, so...not me.

You know the worst part? I'm hurting over my ex girlfriend, not my estranged wife.

I don't know why I'm writing this stuff. No one here wants to hear it. We all want to hear "Hey you! Come over and fuck me!"

Isn't that why we're all here? Just to find someone we think is attractive and hook up? I know I am. But I want it to be open to more than that. I want it to be open to talk, and laughter, and friendship. No, I'm not looking to replace my wife. I am not looking to get married. I am looking to replace my girlfriend.

I need love. That's what I got from her.
I need companionship. That's also what I got from her.
I need friendship. That I got from her too.

I need help.

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