I am happy. I don't know how or why, but I am. Maybe someone slipped something into my iced tea...  

rm_RoyDs 47M
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2/1/2006 11:54 pm

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I am happy. I don't know how or why, but I am. Maybe someone slipped something into my iced tea...

Well, here we are again, just me and my little computer.

I am now, officially living alone. My wife has moved out and taken just about everything of hers and ours that was in the house, a few more items to remove on Saturday, and she's done.

So why am I okay? It's not that I don't love her...

My anger is gone, my sadness - subsiding. I have been laughing with friends, I am ... somehow on the road to recovery. ... or it's shock, and the truth hasn't sunk in. I don't think so though...

Seems to me that I have been expecting it to hurt worse than it does. Not that I am happy at all about the way things are, I see our splitting as a great loss to both of us, and a terrible waste of a relationship that worked.

Maybe this isn't the worst thing to happen to me like I thought it would be. It definitely isn't good for the relationship, well, it is to a point. We aren't fighting over the stupid things now. 17 years, and if you saw us within the last 6 months, you'd think that we never got along at all!! We always did. 16.9 out of the 17 years.

Lesson.

Fight. It's okay. Do it slowly over time instead of all at once. Bumpy car ride - the shocks absorb... drive that car over all the bumps it will ever hit all at once and you have yourself a car falling off a cliff.

Well.

I'm meeting this girl tomorrow just for coffee. I don't anticipate any chemistry or attraction, but it's something to do. We seem to get along well enough online, spoke on the phone a couple of times, so, I guess this is the next logical step right?


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