The End of the Weekend  

rm_NaeniaSea 47F
273 posts
9/10/2006 11:28 pm
The End of the Weekend

I finally talked with "W" tonight after avoiding him all weekend. I had my Vonage line forwarding to my cell, the cell was turned off, so everything went to voicemail.

I told him I had Candlebox tickets for next Saturday and that I hadn't anyone to go with me. I know it bothered him because all the concerts I've attended the past year has been with him. Ministry was the last one, it was an awesome show. We are also supposed to see KMFDM in October. We might still go together because it is too short notice to invite anyone else...I haven't had enough time to trust anyone I've talked with on AdultFriendFinder so far. My ex is the only other person that has similar tastes in music and I'd cut off my right arm before inviting him.

"W" and I talked for a while, but I could not hide the resignation in my voice. My usual sense of humor made an appearance, but still...the tone was not the norm. He told me he loved me before saying good-night, but I did not return the words, for the first time since we've been together. There was a pause, I said "sweet dreams"...I know he caught it. I don't want to hurt him, I'll see him at work tomorrow and we will probably further discuss us. I won't be a cheat, I'll break it off officially before ever sneaking around behind his back.

Last Tuesday was our last sexual encounter, once a week is unacceptable to me (I've complained too much about this, time to do something about it). I am not going to spend my late nights pleasuring myself for the relief I need, I have no problems finding sex, so why should I wait around for him to want me as much as I want him? It's not even that so much as timing. We both have such full lives, him more so, that getting together for lovin' is not as easy as it should be. I can't go on like that. I asked him to come over here to see me this weekend, but he didn't and it really brought me down. He keeps telling me to be patient...well, I'm done with patience. I have needs and I'm not getting any younger. It makes me grumpy and I'm tired of that too.

All I can do is play things by ear...see what happens. AdultFriendFinder has done wonders for my mood at least, I'm glad to be back.

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