Lonely day  

rm_NaeniaSea 47F
273 posts
2/15/2006 9:40 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Lonely day

Well, I finally returned to work after being out with a cold the past two days. "W" gave me a box of Godiva chocolates. It made me feel uncomfortable...I'm not his Valentine anymore. Maybe he's hoping to plump me up so that no one else would want me. Heh, but I didn't refuse them...that would make me stupid. I usually try not to have sweets around, it's so easy to gobble up chocolate.

I can't deny that I have feelings for him still. It would have been so easy to fall into his arms today and I know it would have been passionate...and a huge mistake. He'll never be mine while he's still married. Would I have not followed through with my divorce if it weren't for "W"s whispered words of sweet nothings? Will I return to him if he does follow through...or will I be lost to him forever?

I was in a terribly grumpy mood today. I've concluded that it is because I haven't had sex in nearly a month. Masturbation never makes up for the release found in hours-long hot, sweaty sex. And fun in the shower before and after...and...oh...how I tease myself with these thoughts.

I could easily jump into some quick-n-dirty fun, but it wouldn't fill my need if I didn't have some attraction beyond the physical. I think, within the next couple weeks, I'll have made up my mind and take a risk on meeting someone.

I sing in my car, I sing in the shower, I sing while preparing dinner, I sing when cleaning house and I even sing at work. I sing at the top of my lungs...I sing at barely a whisper...I sing...

Lonely Day - System Of A Down

Such a lonely day,
and it's mine
The most lonliest day of my life
Such a lonely day,
should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

The most lonliest day of my life
The most lonliest day of my life

Such a lonely day,
shouldn't exist
It's a day that I'll never miss
Such a lonely day,
and it's mine
The most lonliest day of my life

And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most lineliest day of my life

Such a lonely day,
and its mine
It's day that I'm glad I survived


loadeddice05 45M

2/17/2006 6:40 am

Giving you props! If you can sing to System of a Down With all the aggresion required?


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