the trials...  

rm_MrBix13 41M
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7/12/2005 9:00 pm

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the trials...


once upon a time, there was a young kid that desperatly wanted to know what it was like to be with a woman. years later, he wonders how this curiosity developed into an active role in his life. Morality is an issue that i hear a lot about. Certain things are taboo, but others are an act of passion. strange how you can go from being a young buck with fire in his veins, and ice in his heart, to a man who will say "no".
Have you ever had others make you feel like what you choose to do is wrong? Have you ever looked inside your own wants and needs, and believed that they were somehow not acceptable? I have. Kind of sucks. People tell me that i'm growing up, and settling down. I refuse to believe that. I'd rather think that when you age, the opportunity to indulge in what you want to really do slips past you. Life is a calling to action that requires total commitment to your needs. I will not go without food, water, and a couple hours a week of watching movies with my dog (he likes action movies). That doesn't change the fact that i feel some sort of loss. I feel like i'm letting the best part of my curiosity slip past me so that i can maintain a semblance of normality. ever feel that way? One thing i've learned about this site is that a formally frowned upon approach to the species is more than acceptable. but the shadows we hide in are still binary. I have yet to live out a true fantasy as dictated by the age of technology. words and swords aside, flesh is not easily produced or wanted in a venue that easily avoids touch, feel, and the warmth of anothers desire. You live, you breath, and you die....but when you are pressed to the flesh of your fantasy (who, or whatever it may be) you do all at once.

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