I need to be used.....  

rm_MRCLEAN92626 39M
8 posts
8/25/2005 12:15 am

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4/4/2006 1:07 am

I need to be used.....

I long so badly for the touch of a woman...tired of so much pain, distress, heartache, veangence, suffering, lonelyness, sadness, fear and self-loathing...I need a helping hand, so I can get over this unfit world of mine, and onto another. I want need to feel wanted, even if truelly just used by an understanding woman. Come use and abuse me! I do not care! I want to be hurt, bruised and beaten. Have me at your mercy, do with me as you will, just dont tell me, that you will always love me. I dont want anything more than to share myself and a little time, to be used by just one, courageous young woman. I sit here alone, drunk in my sorrow, stunned by the pain yet another one I'd borrowed. Bring it all to me, ill be your scapegoat. Dump all the worlds hell, the excuses the blame. I cannot go on in this deep and dark world. Why should I go on? These are not all my problems. But who cares about me? no one, not you, nor he. BRING ME A WOMAN, one mothering in nature, so I can may find my way to live another day. This hatred has been burned deep under my skin. For i was just trying, to help my friend. Come here and use me any way you want i dont care. I need that simple feeling, of someone who cares...it does need be true, only convincing. so I can move on, and away from this sorrow. So someone please help me, I beg you, you must. Im dying a slow death, forgotten by all.

rm_caligirl4ya 40F

9/10/2005 12:53 am

This is truly one of the most moving written pieces I have read in a while. You truly made me feel your hurt and anger...or it could be that I could relate simply because I feel the same half the time. I dont know how serious you are in your writing, but you truly have a gift in expressing yourself. Hope to read more in the future.

adorable_sweet 35F

9/17/2005 6:12 pm

Wow.. ummm... hmmmm.. I think im speechless after reading that. If you didnt live so far from me, id be more then willing to get to know you a hell of alot more.. I do agree with caligirl, very well written and you make your readers feel the pain your expressing..

sweetbabes1973 44F

9/21/2005 6:40 pm

babe, id love to get to know you. id youd like to get together, let me know. and thank you for being vulnerable with your heart. i appreciate your depth.

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