rm_JohnMacLaine 51M
454 posts
3/29/2006 6:56 am

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Well here I am on a Wednesday morning before work wondering what the hell am I going to write about today?

I went to get my bloodwork done this morning as a preview of my physical next Thursday, but now I have nothing to do until I leave for work this afternoon. I could study, (salespeople are always learnnig their craft) sleep, clean, or just sit here and stare at my screen for the next 3 hours. I have perused the blogs this morning, finding a lot of beautiful people, learning about them, finding myself either liking what they had to say or not. One woman was having a desperate housewives fantasy, another was having a fantasy about a friend whom she seems to think is not attracted to her, but hopes he is. One guy was even considering giving up coffee because of health reasons (dont do it!!), Me, I am just going through the motions of yet another day in the life of John, boring, non-eventful, full of lonliness, frustratons, boredom, and nothing to do.

I have a son,(think I mentioned this before) I spent all day with him yesterday playing video games (PS2 is a cool system, and the new Ratchet game is even better) which is what he likes to do, so we do what he likes. Then I come home, say around 7 PM, feeling tired, and I decide I was going to take a nap, just about an hour, cause I like to blg, there is someone I talk to on a regular basis on IM and wanted to see how their day went, so I figured an hour would suffice. well after laying down, the next thing I know it is 2AM!! I swear to myself, thinking I will never get back to sleep now and may have to stay up all night in order to make it to the lab early enough this morning so that I will not be there all day, and I have ruined the best of a good evening that I could have spent in front of the puter either studying or chatting with my friend and blogging. I hate when I do that (yes, not the first time). I am going to have to make it a point from now on to not take naps when it is 7 in the evening and save them for the afternoon. Anyway I layed back down at 4:30 this morning and woke up again at 8. so I ended up with 11 hours of sleep - whoa!!

This whole post is much about nothing but it contains thoughts that run through my head over what has happened over the last 24 hours.

My Ex wife is sick, she has crohn's disease and I am worried about her. she looks like hell and has lost a lot of weight. She is only 110 pounds when healthty, and now looks like she is about 90 pounds, so yes I am concerned. She is pretty much all by herself during the day, her hubby works til 6 or 6:30 in the evening, and when she is alone I worry about her being able to do things sice her boys are 11(mine), 9 and 9, (one is a step). I wish she would just go to the hospital but she says there would be no one left to watch the children and she has been through these attacks several times. she will be fine.


Stubborn woman. Why do you all have to be so stubborn? Why can't you just listen to reason sometimes and do what someone advises you to do, but nooooo you have to be stubborn, tough, pig headded and frustrate me to the point that I just throw up my hands and move

I need to wash my car and clean it out, but will probably do it later. I have a mess to clean in both my kitchen and my BR but for some reason dont have the energy.

(after sleeping 11hours I dont have he energy???)

Maybe getting in the shower and waing up a bit will energize me..



"I can retain neither respect or affection for a government which has been moving from wrong to wrong in order to defend its own immorality" Mahatma Ghandi

AltumHunksUnite 54M

3/29/2006 7:03 am

Maybe if you reassure her that the kids will be fine, would you have time to watch them for her?

Crohn's disease is bad news. No one talks much about it.

Let me drive. I like the view

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
3/29/2006 8:25 am

Gently soaping up your back and using the loofah on you....
Take a deep breath and know that you will care for all
one thing at a time....

Hugs. A little better now after your shower?

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

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