Summer Affair  

rm_JEvilAngel 38F
228 posts
9/9/2006 10:40 am

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Summer Affair

I knew that I am the one who had to fade out from his life, since he was a virgin....

I met him on AdultFriendFinder.
I was not expecting to meet anyone in person from online.
But I did.

When I first met him in person, he was gentle and nice as I thought. And he was younger than me.

We talked all night at the cozy bar, including about sex.
And I found out that he never had sex.

It made me so surprised because he doesn't look like it.
I mean.... he's young and pretty cute.

But still, I was not thinking to have any relationship with him but "being friends".

Well, you can call me a fool, but that was what I was thinking in my mind and that was my online rule.

And yes. I broke my rule and had slept with him.

It was not a one night stand.
Actually it went on for a few weeks.

Anytime I see him, I remind myself that I had to say "good bye" to him soon.
But I could not.
Maybe it was because I was scared....
I do not know what I was scared of....

A few weeks now, since he does not take a contact with me.
I know he's the one who decided not to see me anymore.

I should be happy about that he took a step.
But in the other hand, I am kinda sad.

Because, I lost a chance to say

"Good Bye" and "Thank You" for him.

I wanted to say that seeing his face.

Even if he was just using me to loose his virginality, I still had a good time and he made me think a lot.
I learnt a lot from him.

Again, I was a girl who had to gone.

He's young and he should know more girls in his life and I should not disturb that.

I want him to be a nice, attractive man in the future.

One good thing is we were smiling, the very last time we met. No expectation of good bye.

Now,I want to believe that was a best way for both of us.

How you lost your virginality?

With your girl/boyfriend?

Or just someone who you thought "she/he should be it"??

How it ended up...?

Is it a good memory for you??

What are they mean to you now?

Autumnwalker2006 61M

9/9/2006 11:52 am

Found this genuinely touching. Just wanted to say so.

rm_k_takahiro 38M
755 posts
9/9/2006 4:05 pm


rm_in_sapporo 40M
8 posts
9/9/2006 5:55 pm

Loosing someone that you care for is always sad.
I don't think you should think that you did a mistake ‒ because it wasn't.
You had a good time and I'm sure he had too - So just look on the bright side.
I guess that you'd prefer if he was brave enough to say goodbye to you in your face ‒ but maybe he didn't find a way to say that to your face because he care about you and didn't want to hurt you (although he did).
The bottom line is ‒ enjoy you memories and try looking on the bright side.
And like always - if you want to have some good time with me ‒ just le me know…
Lost in Sapporo

rm_go4itmate 45M
67 posts
9/9/2006 7:00 pm

Oh, my first time? hehhehehe it was a 15000YEN(^^)
hehehehee, the amount is just a figurative, when I was about 17-18 years old I think. I was not very good at pickup girls and few friends of mind and me gethered up and went an one of those place(^^)

how did it ended up? - well, the lady was very nice and she treated me very, at least that is what I remember. oh, yes it is a good memory - somewhat stupid, but any memory is a good memory, it is just how I think about it, if you know what I mean.

I personally don't enjoy much of just meet and go for a fuck(please do pardon me for using such a word, but I think it describs just what I mean). I enjoy sex when both relaxed and enjoy as like a cuple. and even if I could have a just sex friend, this would be the what I want. and the lady I paid for was just like that - perhaps that is why I am like this right now.

as for your story, if you have a rules, stick to it. what I mean is that if you pick up a boy in this site, the chances are most of us want to find some play partners or friends not a serious relationship - not all of course, but most of us are. Onthe other hand, don't make a such rules that you can not keep, just go with the flow and enjoy yourself, life is short, everyone wants to spend their like in a nice way in their definitions. Besides everyone has feelings and no one wants to get hurt.

oops, me bad, I did it again (^^, just enjoy while you can!
Carpe dium!( I hope I splet it right (^^

rm_JEvilAngel 38F

9/11/2006 7:21 am

Autumnwalker2006 >>

Thank you for telling me so.




Thanks for your comment.
I do not think I made a mistake.
Hope he thought same way as you said.
At least that is how I want to think!!

go4itmate >>

Thank you for your comment and your story!
Well, I guess you are right.
I mean I should not make a rules which I can not stick on to!!
But still, I want to believe something.... "being good girl". haha
And it was not a serious relationship with him....
Errr... yeah. this is all my "excuses" tho! haha

Well, your advice really helps me. thanks!!

rm_in_sapporo 40M
8 posts
9/13/2006 1:30 am

hello again dear JEvilAngel.
how are you today?
maybe you can tell me why no one from sapporo ever online in the chat or IM?
there is always someone from tokyo - but never someone from sapporo...
do women here use less the computre?
what do you think?

rm_JEvilAngel 38F

9/13/2006 1:54 am


I do not know what's going on in the chat room or IM.
Because I never use those places on this site.
Not much reason tho....
But, as you might know that Western people's community here in Sapporo is quite Small.
Since there are chances of meeting with you guys accidently in ths bar or.... maybe at schools,girls doesn't want people knows they are a member of those site....

I do not know if I am right or not.
But that is what I think.

rm_in_sapporo 40M
8 posts
9/13/2006 11:58 pm

thank you for the answer.

yes it it true that the are less western people here in sapporo then in tokyo, but i don't think that every girl from sapporo is looking for a western guy.
you can com to this site and look for japanese person to have fun with right?

and regarding the chances of meeting- sapporo is big city, i think that the chance of random meeting someone that you talked to in the chat room and that you (or he) will recognize you - are very low.
don't you think?

or are you talking about meeting him after you alrady know him?
if so - i think that everyone that looking for some fun and this kind of site take this risk anyway - if they are using the chat room or not.

so the problem is that people will know you are a member of AdultFriendFinder?
People from tokyo have less fear?
if the problem is that you don't want people to know you are a member, how come you use the mailing system and so on - but not the chat rooms?

if there are girls in sapporo that want to have fun (and i think there are) and they register for this site - why do they never use the chat room?
isn't it the best way to talk with someone befor you meet him?

how do you meet people? only by the mail that you get? (if i may ask).

I want to meet japanese lady and have some fun together - what do you think is the best way to do that?
thank you again for your answers....

BTW - i'm not a virgin and i'm sure that my parner will have fun...

rm_go4itmate 45M
67 posts
10/18/2006 8:09 am

it is my honor to be any service you my lady.

(oh, crap, there is NANA on TV,,,, I can not stand the bull,,,, just like those KOR dramas on TV,,, - if there is any Koreans here, please do forgive me, I do not mean any offensive meaning. it is just that quite far away from my reality that is what bugs me, like NANA)

playingfm 58M
6 posts
10/23/2006 7:17 am

That was very touching. I hope to meet you sometime while I'm in Japan.

Neuvana 42M
10 posts
11/30/2006 4:39 am

You look at life and situations very beautiful. I dont know how I ended up at your blog but however I did adn clearly a situation that would leve most people bitter didnt do that to you. thought I;d leave that comment with you, you have an air f positivity about you. Hope you find what you are looking for for your life. PEACE!

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