I'm helping  

rm_Eric0072005 52M
422 posts
7/6/2006 9:43 am

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7/9/2006 3:25 am

I'm helping

My First I have decided to help
What's holding me is my love of my cash
My security it seems to provide and yet
Something legitimate her house I believe
Now proceeding on with what lies ahead.

Today in my stumbling speech
I brought her to tears
When I said in my unsettled heart
That I really do not know her enough to give.

She looks at me differently
After this year
Went out shopping
Drove her to some place
Went out to eat
Besides each week together we sleep
If this is not knowing her, then what is?

Her tears did not spill out
It was withheld.
I was not blind to
The wetness in her eyes
Behind a defiant face that said
`I have not lied to you
You are afraid that I am cheating you.
If you don't want to help me
Then don't speak to me about this house.'

Have I not said that I want to be different?
I don't want to be the average person
Comfortable at every turn
The past years especially the last 5
I've been weary and tired
As I have seen that I am so safe and secured in my place.

I want to be someone that makes a difference to another
Not for personal gain or love returned
I want to be that someone truly selfless within
Mother Teresa comes to mind
As that someone that is revered.

No, not to be revered
No, not I
But just to see or know
That my action have made a difference to someone.
A difference for the better
For that someone I have met.

Like I read somewhere -
To be fulfilled
Give without expecting gratefulness of any sort
Love without expecting love to be returned
One must be such to be truely selfless in heart
To move along this path because you believe that you are here to be such
I think I have made some sort of break-through To be more of what I believe I should become.

To make a difference wherever I can
To make a difference to another lesser than I
In terms of material gains.
I am here for something like this
For a person like my First.

I have evaluated it all
Especially the cost
It is not going to lead me to hunger
Can be recoverd just need some time
The red line in my book will be black in no time
Unless something happens
But those phobic thoughts can be rejected out right.

I've been taught to be careful
And careful and careful.
I've heard it so much for a large part of life
That I am sick and tired of it.
Now I want to do something, to take risks.
For if there are no risks in life
I will never know the meaning of it.( life )

So I'll be helping her
And I wait for my First to show me the results
Of my deed.
I do believe
Somehow in a heart - that is not as emotional as some may think it is
I really, genuinely believe her.

Eric
I need to write this to clarify thoughts.


happyladychat 48F
3740 posts
7/6/2006 6:53 pm

$$$ is the root of all evils. Whether you believe her or not, just make sure that once you give the $$$ away, never expect the $$$ to be returned. Thus when you do get back the $$$, you'll just be happier, that's all. Otherwise, it would just strained the relationship.

When it comes to $$$, you can never be too careful.

Make it your challenge.... turn me ON!!


rm_Eric0072005 replies on 7/7/2006 6:18 pm:
Lady,
You will probably agree with me the amended statement
`The Love Of Money Is The Root Of All Evil'.
Thanks.

rm_Eric0072005 52M
254 posts
7/7/2006 6:12 pm

    Quoting happyladychat:
    $$$ is the root of all evils. Whether you believe her or not, just make sure that once you give the $$$ away, never expect the $$$ to be returned. Thus when you do get back the $$$, you'll just be happier, that's all. Otherwise, it would just strained the relationship.

    When it comes to $$$, you can never be too careful.
Thank you Lady.

I thank you for re-inforcing important approaches to money. Important for growth. I am NOT GOING TO BE A MADMAN even if I am cheated. No! But I proabably can say this becos I do look at money - objectively- in a different light. And I have my resereves.

The emotional attachment is a safeguard and at times like this a barrier.

That is why I cannot be business man.

Hugs Eric


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