rm_Elysia2005 44F
512 posts
6/2/2005 8:05 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


So I got an IM tonight from an A F F guy, who's certainly attractive enough, but who has flaked on me not once, but twice... and never acknowledged it or apologized, just blew it off. I know this is supposed to be casual, but at least let me know plans are changing so I can make other plans.

So anyway, he IMs me tonight asking if I want to have sex, and I say no thanks. He asks why - don't I want his cock? I say no, and again he asks why. I ask him if he really wants to know, and he does, so I tell him. The problem with his cock, is that it's attached to a guy who keeps flaking on me. He says he only did that once, and besides, plenty of women on this site are flakes. I tell him he did it twice, and there are many flakes, female AND male, but that there are also plenty of men who have NOT flaked on me. So he essentially tells me he's going to stick to women on his side of town now anyway. I close the IM window and delete him from my messenger list. Seconds later, he pops up and says, besides, his "friend" tonight is a "slenderella," and he's going to stick with those from now on, too, so "so long, chunkzilla."

Ass, right?

Here's my little epiphany though. There was a time when I would have really taken that to heart and been quite upset. But this time, I just laughed and thought, any guy who treats me like that... and actually uses terms like "slenderella" and "chunkzilla"... is NOT someone whose opinion means anything to me. Now, maybe I was just able to do that because of the wonderful guy last night who made me feel like a beautiful princess, who looked at my big ol' butt and thought he was in heaven. But I think not. I think I'm just finally starting to care less about what others think of me, and more about what I know to be true. I may be "plus size" but I am still a beautiful, sexy, good woman who knows how to use the body God gave her, for ultimate pleasures. Anyone who can't see past my weight to what I have to offer, doesn't deserve to know anyway!

(As "I Am Woman" plays in the background...)

majordomobilly 49M
50 posts
6/2/2005 9:12 pm

Glad to hear you like yourself based on what you think, not the opinions of others The guy doesn't sound like he was worth your time anyway

JohnerH 36M

6/2/2005 10:33 pm

One small note hun...

It's only not just a great body/ass/etc you have, but you forgot one of your biggest assets...

Your brain!

ImpishWolf 38M  
29 posts
6/3/2005 1:56 am

Well that’s one of my pet peeves, I just find that some people when they make plans or say they are going to do something and don’t are showing there true colors of there lack of respect for others. It just seems to me that a person that has a short memories for others or can’t do the right thing if plans have to change. Should become a forgotten one. Plus his last comments sound like he was upset from your rejection of him. Him seeming to believe he was better than you or doing you a favor. Must have been a blow to his ego. Just saying of those spiteful comments is telling of the character of said person.

Your epiphany is one of those things I believe not may people ever get. Especially in today’s day and age and people’s programming from the external existential world. Growing beyond such thing is not easy thing to do. But it helps to have others that give you positive feed back. Though you have to be careful some cause it’s easy to slip back. But I should stop rambling on, one is here to read my philosophizing.

NJRadioGuy 52M

6/3/2005 6:22 am

Yeah, what he said! It also wouldn't hurt if you "leaked out" that idiots E-Mail to a few choice people and FLOOD his E-Mail box! Oooops, did I say that out loud!?

rm_Elysia2005 44F
412 posts
6/3/2005 4:40 pm

Awwwwwwwww... Y'all're makin' me blush! Seriously, thanks to all of you for your encouragement. Evne though I'm learning not to NEED it, I still definitely ENJOY it!!!

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend, I'm off to spend quality time with my short people...

juju34single 47F

6/5/2005 7:57 pm

Someone could read that there epiphany, and really learn something!
Would be way cool if some narrow minded people could read it too, and stop wondering why their mind trips aren't working anymore.

Good for you!

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