Letter from Adbacula: HE'S GONE!  

rm_Ellenback 60F
903 posts
7/21/2006 4:31 pm

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7/23/2006 10:27 pm

Letter from Adbacula: HE'S GONE!

Hi Elle,

I feel really bad about leaving without saying good-bye to you, and everyone else in Blogland.
I just didn't want to make a big deal of leaving. It might've been too hard for me to make a clean break. Everyone was just so nice and supportive of me, and I feel ashamed for leaving, without at least saying, "Good-bye."

If anyone asks, (Especially, Huny, angel, KarmoHunny, kittenkisses, moonfire, fortunaswm, and wickedeasy) please let them know...

1) I didn't get religious!
2) I didn't go crazy!
3) I just realized I was happy already, and didn't need to jeopardize my current relationship, to fulfill a fantasy.
4) I'm sorry I split before I wrote Part2.
5) What I experienced was, "Automatic writing" or just simply the "Ideomotor effect". Simply, writing out of control. It was fun toying with the fact, that perhaps it was God. [Actually, I think God is everything, therefore, everything is God's will, and we're not meant to understand, but we can sure try.]

So, I still think about things the same way. I'm still Agnostic, and will be forever I think. I just liked blogging, and God's one of the topics that interest me... other than sex... hehe. That's why I liked Blogland so much. From nonesensical and light, to deep and thoughtful. It was the diversity of blogs to choose from, that entertained, inspired and intrigued me.

I've been trying to think of how to explain the "what's and why's" of what I was going through, at the time. Here's some quotes that might help...


"The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream... they can go on and on."

"What we don't understand we can make mean anything."

"More and more, it feels like I'm doing a really bad impersonation of myself."


M. Scott Peck:
The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.

Chinese proverb:
One who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; one who does not ask a question remains a fool forever.

Gilda Radner:
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity.

Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absent-minded.
Someone sober will worry about events going badly.
Let the lover be.

Salvador Dali:
I believe that the moment is near when by a procedure of active paranoiac thought, it will be possible to systematize confusion and contribute to the total discrediting of the world of reality.

Thomas A. Edison:
Restlessness and discontent are the first necessities of progress.

Tom Peters:
If you're not confused, you're not paying attention.


I hope that this helps a little, in understanding me a little more, and why I didn't say good bye. I wish you, and everyone else in Blogland, the best of luck... and eternal grooviness.

(Sheesh! Maybe you should just post this! LOL!)


He pulled his profile, as if he never existed, but we all know he did...

So, I have...*raising a wine glass to you, Addy, in your search, or non-search, for whatever it was you need in life.

We WILL MISS YOU, but thank the stars someone got out of here in one piece...

(((softboobyhugs))) *SNIFF


moonfire2u 71F
2602 posts
7/21/2006 6:27 pm

This is an amazing man...who is wished the best by me...I was honored and fortunate to have this man pass through my life for a brief moment...

I raise my glass to him too...

kind thoughts,

rm_Ellenback 60F
966 posts
7/21/2006 7:32 pm

I'll pass on all messages to him directly, so thank you for your good thoughts Moonfire! Perhaps he'll return, if only to write...

I begged him to continue writing, if not here, then somewhere, and if he does, I'll be sure to keep you all posted on his location.


Just the Messenger...


rm_KarmoHunny 56F
888 posts
7/21/2006 7:46 pm

I agree with moonfire. Addy was very kind and wonderful to me. I will truly miss him and wish him the very best!

Thanks for letting me know, Ellen. I appreciate it!


rm_shannee2006 53F
3355 posts
7/21/2006 8:10 pm

I just discovered him in the last week or so. I wish he'd hung out more. He was a pretty neat man. Thanks for posting this Elle. It's nice that he said goodbye in a round about way.

Yup...this juiciness is from me....


rm_zimzam1974 43M
25 posts
7/21/2006 8:43 pm

I don't know a thing about this guy, but his farewell letter speaks volumes. He seems very aware, very curious, very intelligent, and very classy. It's a shame he's gone because there are very few men on AdultFriendFinder who have these qualities. The lunatics are one step closer to running the asylum now.


MarcoPolo197676 41M
541 posts
7/21/2006 10:04 pm

All people have reasons, respect em, support their descisions.
Sometimes Ive thought about, shutting down, for now I choose to stay the course.

wickedeasy 68F  
31320 posts
7/22/2006 8:10 am

to addy

thank you for sharing even a small part of your journey with us. your words and your sincerity were appreciated, pondered and for me a must read.

you asked me a question and here is my answer

your truth may not be my truth - and if there is ONE truth - then i do believe it lives in all of us, waiting only to be discovered. should i have disagreed with what you said, that would only mean that i valued it enough to think about it, and to give you back my honest answer

and if no one pays attention - aren't we all still bound as human beings to follow our true path - is the approbation fo others necessary for us to do what we think right?

i will miss you - but i am glad you are happy - so few people can say that - and i trust that your journey will be a profoundly interesting one

may the road rise up to meet you
may the wind be always at your back
and may you find yourself in heaven
five minutes before the devil knows you're gone

wishing you a life filled with moments of transcendant joy


You cannot conceive the many without the one.

angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
7/22/2006 3:54 pm

Elle....please let Addy know that his farewell letter was just another wonderful piece of writing. I was looking forward to getting to know him here in the blogs....and I hope if he decides to blog elsewhere....that he allows you to let us know. I truly understand his reasons for leaving......actually there is some of that in my mindset right now too. Ask him if he minds if I use some of his quotes! Thanks sweetie for letting us know....and wish him well for me.

rm_Ellenback 60F
966 posts
7/23/2006 10:27 pm

I forwarded all of these comments on to Addy, and I will post his response, if there is one. I'm sure he will love to read your well wishes, and thank you, everyone!



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