hey u! wanna fuck?  

rm_DreamerPJ16 33F
102 posts
8/30/2006 1:50 pm

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11/19/2006 8:37 pm

hey u! wanna fuck?

i'm in one of those moods, that i wish i could just pull any1 off the street and say, "Do you wanna fuck?" and then go off and do it. tho i never would. but it's nice to imagine.

so i've been a bit unsettled as to my beliefs in what is acceptable sexual behavior for myself. i really don't judge anyone else. every1 has the right to choose wut they want to do and behave how they want to behave. but i'm really judgemental of myself. i either feel like a prude or like a whore. there's really no inbetween. yet i wouldn't identify anyone else with those terms, just myself. so frustrating.

but then there's the whole synopsis of what you believe and what you actually do. i'll either repress my thoughts and sexual drive, which makes my sexually frustrated or i'll act on them and then feel emotionally frustrated. either give in to temptation or resist. if i stay away from situations that i actually am pressured into making a decision, it obviously becomes more difficult to resist. if i act on them, then i'm more likely in the future to act on them more frequently.

i think being able to hold off on something you desire, makes it so much more enjoyable later, when you actually do follow through. but repression is not a good thing. i think i may make myself go crazy. well neways, i'm so busy with life right now that i can't even find the time to meet new ppl which pretty much leads to the first scenario--plucking a random person out of somewhere and givin' it a go. unfortunately my friends w/ benefits are dating other ppl right now.

i went onto thinking of this scenario. wut if u had an unlimited amount of sexually appealing ppl at your disposal? they are physically attractive according to your standards and are willing to have sex with you. You don't know anything about them, but it is up to u to decide whether that actually matters or not. taking into consideration you have a huge sexual appetite and that the temptation is there for the taking, what would you do? would you act on your desires entirely, or would you cut urself back a bit? would u just select of few of those ppl and actually try to get to know some of them? would u invite all of them to one huge orgy? what would you do if u were in that scenario? realistically?

i don't know what i'd do, but i'm sure i could make a pretty good prediction. even with how hectic and tied down i am now and even with how much i am repressing my desires, i would take advantage of what was in front of me. i don't have the time, energy, commitment level, mindset or emotional preparedness right now to actually form a relationship with any of those ppl. but i'd like to get to know a bit about them. and then perhaps have an orgy. alright, maybe i'm fantasizing a bit too much.

i think about relationship of sexual beliefs and behaviors about ppl, and wonder, why is that correlation the way it is? do ppl who believe in things like only having sex after marriage or holding off until meeting the person you love really kinda think that way b/c they haven't experienced how great it is to have sex and really don't know what they're missing out on? or is it majorly just based on the environment they grew up in, the ppl they surround themselves around, their religious background or their morals? for ppl who believe sex should be a free for all but don't engage in sex often--do they not have sex b/c the opportunities just aren't there for them? i don't find it difficult at all finding a sex partner, but i know other ppl have it differently. so i'd fall into the bracket of having ppl at my disposal, but backing off from it b/c the guys that actually want to have sex with me i'm usually not attracted to either in terms physical aspects or personality. but in some cases i have been attracted to ppl, but turned it down too. either cuz my mind was in the wrong place or it went against my beliefs at the time. it would be nice to truly believe in something, have the opportunities that go with those beliefs and then act out on them. hi ho for all those who are totally unrestrained in body and mind in terms of expressing their sexuality. what a complete freedom that truly is.

needzsumluvin 32M
61 posts
8/30/2006 2:52 pm

yes please. well im in the chicago area if and would enjoy chatting with you some time if you have the y messenger my screen name there is needzsumluv being a std member i cannot read profiles but from what i read in your blog we may hit if off.

coff3216 41M

9/6/2006 3:16 pm

Wow dreamer.. that is a deep blog to post on AdultFriendFinder.. I like the creativity and it was well thought out.. bravo.. so wanna fuck? You can say that.. why not? more people should. It is really the main reason we are here. So there I said it. Check me out, and say hi.

SirMounts 103M

10/8/2006 4:30 am

Hey, where have you been? *concerned*

rm_ChicagoWillU 49M
1 post
11/14/2006 9:40 am

You just haven't met someone that you're comfortable with. If a woman came up and asked me if I wanted to fuck I would think something was wrong with her. But, if I had a chance to get to know the girl and felt the strong chemistry between us over a few cocktails, then neither of us would have to ask if the other "wanted to fuck", it would just happen - chemistry is a powerful motivator...

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