What have I DONE??  

rm_DarknStar 55F
3006 posts
6/26/2006 6:36 pm

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6/27/2006 4:14 am

What have I DONE??

I sit and wonder that myself these days.....
I have a small problem.....
I have a *FB*, I cant walk away from....
I played hard and now Im stuck.....
stuck between are ROCK and a HARD SPOT.

He said once this cant last forever....
this isnt what he wants....
Yet he keeps wanting me back....
every weekend....

I keep going back...
because I enjoy my time....
With HIM.....
and only him.

I CANT WALK AWAY.....
it will have to be HIM
that ENDS this....

I will Hurt
No matter what
HAPPENS

Who wins? at the game?

My answer: NOBODY!

I have started a game, I cant NOT stop. I found a friend, that I can talk to, have a good time with. A place to go and hang out, that NObody around me, hangs there tooo. Its my Place to go hide and have a GREAT TIME while there. I love the way HE feels next to my body. I love the way he kisses me. I love the way he feels in my body. oops all places! I miss him, when hes not around me. I love talking nightly in space with him. HE ALWAYS HERE. My *FB* means more to me than he should, I guess. This leaves me confused. But that is easily done.

He once said.....Dont let me stop you, if you find someone else.

Once he said.....I dont want you, you are a cheater. (like Im a pro at this...asshole....and if I didnt cheat, he would have never meet me!)

It was about 6 weeks ago...When he said this cant last forever. That this is not what he wanted.

But Still I keep going back and He Keeps asking me to come back!

Sometimes I JUST dont get it!

I WILL ride this out to a bitter end.....I made to choose, thats another story!

I sit and just WONDER what have I done???



Sweetpickles69 49F

6/26/2006 7:13 pm

I'm in the same situation, It sucks! Just "Get it while you can" as Janis Joplin says!

Peace,
Pickles


angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
6/26/2006 8:03 pm

I'm sorry sweetie! I know you deserve more than this. I'm no expert....having never had a FB.....but it does seem that in the end there is no winners. I guess, if it is an escape for you and you enjoy each other....then enjoy it while it lasts. I think that anytime you are making love to someone it is hard not to get the emotions involved!


florallei 100F

6/26/2006 8:39 pm

I am sorry for your pain...each of us entering into the unknown and often tabboo topics and situations justify we have our eyes open...but then our heart overtakes the mind and that is when problems arise even more...because an affair or FB or casual or any sexual relationships lacks the foundation of total commitment from two willing parties...hearts gets broken almost always...
I am scared to get into that situation but I too long intimacy that my partner is unable to give...Please take care...I hope you will be strong.
Florallei


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