Darkness sitting in.........  

rm_DarknStar 55F
3006 posts
8/13/2006 7:30 pm

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8/15/2006 4:54 pm

Darkness sitting in.........

I got this quote from one of sweetpickles69 post.

Even though the whole post had GOOD pointers.

This ONE stuck out and I felt like this is what Im going through, at this point and time in my life!

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt her more if you draw it out.

11 months TODAY with *FB*
BUT who's countin!


I'm bummin!...bad!....

This hurts.....

He says theres Nothing different and that I havent been replaced.....

WHY in the FUCK do I feel and think DIFFERENT about this?

(I seen him on Friday and we DIDNT have any SEX).....THATS THE PROBLEM HERE!.... it fucking bugs the hell out of me. That I called him TODAY after work and ask, If I had been replaced and he said no not yet!

I told him, he hadnt been replaced, nor did I want to replace him.

I told him, he would have to replace me. Because Im not going to replace him.

I cant...its been to much fucking time.....Tooo many Sunday together, watching Nascar ......Just tooooo much freakin weekend time together.

and I have and GUILTY, let some alittle itty bitty feelings grow~! There I said it!

I cant walk away from him! Hes going to bring me down and Im going to fall hard! He drives me crazy!

Hes GOT to say NO more........

Its gonna hurt....no matter what, someone will have and feel the pain.


Sorry I ranted...bad day at work, I HATE paperwork and counting cigerettes and lottery SUCKS ass! and on top of everything, *FB* dont HELP any.....and I want to bring a married man in my life.....Im freakin nuts......Just shoot ME!!

Im going through withdraw. I have nowhere to get a good FUCKIN when I NEED it!........DAMNIT.....I just cant up and run to a married mans house and say fuck me, OH yea....he would love that, BUT I dont think wifey poo would enjoy IT!.....

There for I could DO that if I had a SINGLE MAN...

Ok.......Ill shut the fuck up now.....quit the fuckin bitchin about nothin!.....GO on and live freakin life one day at a time and Good Night!

Sweetpickles69 48F

8/14/2006 6:45 am

Go ahead, vent get it outta your system! That's kinda why I don't like playing with marrieds.



RevJoseyWales 70M/67F
14393 posts
8/15/2006 4:05 pm

Darlin, do yourself a favor, see your doc and get on some meds. Trust me I know what living with depression is like. You don't have to suffer like you do. Believe me, I don't know what I'd o without my Prozac. Don't put yourself thru this every day. Please. Joe

"McVeigh had the right idea, wrong address."

"This ain't Dodge City, and you ain't Bill Hickok."

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