Thinking and thinking..  

rm_CurvynCuddly 30F
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9/12/2006 12:17 pm

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Thinking and thinking..

Probably going to be even less kinky than usual, in any case.. So I'm a University student, I'm pretty sure we've established that. One of my professors said the most bizarre thing to me today.. That I was on the fast track to canonization, being declared a saint.

Of all the people who could possibly be considered for sainthood.. Well, let's just say I wouldn't be anywhere near the top. Hell, I probably wouldn't even be on the list to start with! So why did he say it then? Well we were discussing altruism, selflessness. He mentioned that some people didn't believe anyone did anything for completely selfless reasons, and asked us if we knew anyone like that. A few people raised their hands, I was one of them. Because he's an 'engage the student' sort of teacher he asked me who it was. I said it was me...

It's true! If I help someone, I always have reasons, if I don't harm someone, I have reasons for that too. Most of them link back to survival, but I don't see, can't imagine how anyone could honestly do anything with no thought for themself. How about... frig I dunno, leaping into a fire to save a child. No time for thought right? Well if I was in a fire, I would want someone to save me, if I have to die I'd rather it be doing something noble and herioc, and frig, if I pull it off, everyone will love me. And that's to save a child's life.. Am I a terrible person? I don't know. How can I know how everyone else honestly thinks. Perhaps I'm just more brutally honest than most..

I might be a bad person, it's possible. The smart ass of the class, and every class has one, that bastard who never shuts up and uses really big words (paradigm, who actually says that?) but secretly is asking pointless questions anyway, said that he didn't believe anyone was like that. That if they were they would be dead, or should be dead anyway. Right after I said I was like that. Does he think I should be dead then? Why? That's not very selfless of him is it? But he believes in selflessness, he believes that he and others do things to help others with no thought for themselves. And he thinks I should be dead. I think of myself. I always do. I'm most important to me. I don't want him dead, I don't want anyone dead. That's not to say I wouldn't kill him if he actually became a threat to me, but I certainly don't go around saying things like that..

Everything I do is based on the big stick theory. I agree not to hit you with a big stick, and in return you don't hit me with a big stick. Once someone does though.. Well you can't trust them to keep the contract can you? They've broken the deal. You don't have to play nice anymore. You still have to consider consequences of course, you've survival to think of, but there's no more contract between you and them.

And I'm going to be a Saint? Pardon me while I snicker.

I expect this class will give me many more things to think on. And on a rather more AdultFriendFinder related note, I love my professor. I don't know if any of you have watched the show House, but he's just like that. He looks similar, actually a bit more handsome, he dresses the same, and he's a sarcastic demeaning asshole the same. He is the perfect teacher. And I'm going to be smart enough to play his game with him. I won't titter and whisper 'I don't know' when he asks me things, I'm going to know, and if I don't know I'll have a damned good, quick question ready for him.

I doubt I'll actually take it any farther than being a good attentive student for once, but it's odd. Once you're on here you look at other people differently, you wonder, are they on here too? That knowing smile they just gave me, do they recognize me? Have I spoken to them and not even known it? It's an odd feeling really, but I rather like it.

Sidenote: Last night, my own backyard, no mess, good fun 27

2daycowboywanted 46F

9/12/2006 1:19 pm

Well best of luck to you!

Until later

7 posts
9/12/2006 4:11 pm

I would be VERY, VERY careful about doing anything more than just thinking about doing something with the Prof. Relationships like that have a nasty way of getting out of control, and you would most likely NOT be the one in control.

As for the loudmouth. Jerk wads like that are an unfortunate fact of life. I personally say that the gene pool could use a little chlorine, but that is another rant. You are a smart little cookie, out think him. You'll either make an enemy or an admirer out of him. Odds are that it will be enemy, but stranger things have happened.

Chin up. Sally forth. Pip pip, and all that rot.

aMasterPlumber 64M

9/13/2006 12:42 pm

Hi Sweety,
Sounds like your class ass has paradigm paralysis.. oops did I say that? well like 'gold said they are an unfortunate fact of life.. and it's true. But look at him in a different way... he is fulfilling his destiny.. I mean someone has to be the asshole, someone else is the village idiot...and so-on other wise the Dictionary would be alot thinner. You're only 19 (what I wouldn't do to get together with you... "Want some candy little girl?") and you haven't experienced all that life has to offer and I'm sorry but there are alot more assholes or dare I say "Rocks in the road"?
Just don't buy into their brand of bullshit and you will be fine.
P.S. I hope you don't mind my barging into your blog without an invitation.

rm_1Fr8Guy 53M

9/13/2006 8:14 pm

Hey. I do things for people all the time without thinking. I differ from your blog in the sense that I do these things for me, not for what others might think. I personally dont give a rats ass for other peoples praise because most of the time, their opinion isnt worth my consideration. Im pretty sure you are a good person and have a good heart so I will second your nomination.... Cannon CurvynCuddly.
As for the teacher thing, use your head and your heart will follow.

Best of all, your friend Rob

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