First...yes .. first ever blog.. virgin .. popped my cherry right in front of your eyes  

rm_AnxiousInPa 51M
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5/16/2006 6:39 pm

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First...yes .. first ever blog.. virgin .. popped my cherry right in front of your eyes

Ok, well now the hard part: Putting thoughts into words and then translating them to paper. I guess that is what this is all about. I want to make this memorable and my thoughts lean to what I am thinking about... a certain someone I met on AdultFriendFinder.. so here goes..
I have been talking to someone from AdultFriendFinder .. very cute.. hmm.. let me say that again.. VERY CUTE.. we have been talking for about two months on IM and have gotten along well. She is a few years younger and a little further away than I would like (about an hour give or take a few with traffic), but not hateful. Anyway, we still haven't met, she talks about the last "relationship", how it really was great until his wife found out and it ceased. She has major walls built up which I have yet to make any headway in breaking down. Well, let me say that I have made headway because you don't talk for this long without something.. but just not major..Obviously I am here for something. I have yet to find that something that makes me jump into someone elses bed, but yet I still look. This person intrigues me.. she has a pensive look, one that brings you closer, closer until you are caught in the web with no release in sight. You struggle but there is no use, you have been caught and then you realize how good it feels to be there. To be in her arms, in her thoughts, her legs wrapped around you..oh wait.. haven't gotten to coffee yet.. or lunch.. or well. the first kiss. The question here is .. if its that hard.. should I actually work at it? Shouldn't it just click ?

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
5/16/2006 7:49 pm

Hey, I am bored in PA. And to answer your question.......uh, all relationships take work, thats the only way to keep them growing.

rm_AnxiousInPa 51M

5/17/2006 3:47 am

thanks.. and I agree, but is it just the challenge that is keeping me going on this? I am beginning to wonder..

want2play926 46F

5/18/2006 5:06 am

Have you thought that maybe she wants to see if you are serious about this and not just trying to get her in bed? Some women will make you work for her because she has been shit on in the past so much, that she NEEDS to be sure that you REALLY care about her.

So glad to see you start your own blog. Good for you! Kisses! Wit this other woman, you STILL owe me coffee! *wink

rm_AnxiousInPa 51M

5/18/2006 10:22 am

Yes w2p.. have thought about that... but you know.. after a couple of months of being bashed about how that IS all that men want, it finally starts to get old. She won't go to the next level of meeting even with US for coffee!!! LOL.. and on the coffee comment.. name the place On this situation.. Basically thanks to writing it down, talking to a friend of the person in question and working through it with you all, I have decided it isn't worth it. The bashing the condescending etc. Next post to be titled... from the Lexus commercialan you create desire? SOON TO BE RELEASED

JBooToU 59F

5/19/2006 9:42 am, struggle, bashing, condescending...why would you even give this a second thought??

Personally, while I do think you need to nurture a relationship for it to grow, I don't think it should be 'hard' or 'work' or anything resembling what you have described. I don't know why it was a tough lesson but I have learned it well. If it's right, it works. And if it's not, no amount of hard work will make it so. Been there, done that, got the tee shirt.

rm_AnxiousInPa 51M

5/22/2006 7:17 pm

lol.. true.. jboo.. the reality is i think this was just a time to write what i already knew.. thanks for the thoughts

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