Screw the lemonaid...  

rm_36specialk 49F
731 posts
1/29/2006 8:17 am

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3/24/2006 7:47 am

Screw the lemonaid...

I haven't divulged Mr.X's identity because I love him so and want to protect him, but now I just have to tell everyone, I'm in love with Superman. That's right, Mr.X is Superman.

I haven't written much about us lately, just haven't felt much like sharing I guess. But today I'm so full of emotion, so full of anger, helplessness, disbelief, dispair. I feel like the world is about to stop spinning and I'm not ready to get off yet.

Mr.X had a major set back this past week and there isn't anything I can do that will help. I've put forth my best effort, made phone calls to old friends, hopefully they'll be able to help. I can't spell out in detail what the setback was, but it could be life altering for him, and therefore for me too. He's talking about moving back home (remember, he's not a U.S. citizen) and I'm not ready to give him up yet. I'm pissed, I've never felt helpless like this before. Usually I'm full of helpful suggestions, remedies, or solutions. He told me a few weeks ago that he'd been offered a "quick fix" to his problem a couple of times in the past, but he's turned them down. His mom told him that there's an easy short path that isn't the right way to go or the long straight narrow path that is the right way to get to your destination. He believes in taking the straight and narrow. I don't think I've ever been offered an easy out of anything, sometimes I wonder if I'd take it. I've never faced the decisions that he's having to make right now either. But I do know that any one of my other friends would probably have taken the easy out.

I want to scream, I want to hit something or someone, but instead all I have are these tears. I'd offer him an easy out but I know he wouldn't take it. He's the bravest most courageous man I know. Not in physical battles, but in life altering battles. There are so many things about him that would have made any normal human with no super powers give up. But he keeps going, keeps fighting. I don't want him to give up or be out of options. Maybe just this once, this one time...TAKE THE QUICK FIX!!!

Life isn't fair, no one ever said it would be. I don't expect life to be fair, just manageable.
Maybe when life isn't fair to us we should do whatever it takes to even the score. They say when life gives you lemons you should make lemonaid, but I say screw the lemonaid, I want my diet coke. I worked hard for my diet coke and if life only wants me to have lemonaid, I may have to be unfair and steal the diet coke.

rm_titsandtires 53M/42F
3656 posts
1/29/2006 12:33 pm

damn right! the hell with lemonade! I like your style!

PrincessKarma 45F
6188 posts
1/29/2006 7:10 pm

Sometimes the QUICK FIX is the RIGHT MOVE...

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

hooks1952 65M

1/29/2006 7:52 pm

Stop! reasearch your options and form your battle plan , life is wayyy too short not to try and gain what your heart wants.


HeardLankaMalls 56M
2925 posts
1/30/2006 4:54 am

Hope everything works out for your Mr and you K.
Good luck, and keep going of the Diet Coke

Mmphmm 46M
592 posts
1/31/2006 5:06 am

I concur!!

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