Perfectly perfect weekend...  

rm_36specialk 49F
731 posts
3/19/2006 7:01 am

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6/11/2006 3:27 pm

Perfectly perfect weekend...

The sky is blue, the grass is a lovely shade of green, all is well in the world of SpecialK and Mr.X.

I just got back from spending the most fabulous day with Mr.X. I got to spend quite a bit of time with him this week, Thurs. night, Friday morning, all day Saturday. (For those of you that don't know, he lives 2 1/2 hours from me).

Anyway, we had the most fabulous day yesterday. He let me sleep in while he went out to run errand's and he even washed my car for me. After that, we just did everyday, mundane stuff that isn't suppose to be fun, but when I'm with him, everything is fun.

I met one of his friends yesterday, he's quite fond of her, I guess sort of like a sister to him maybe. He's worried about her, she's going on quite a long drive by herself. I must admit, I'm worried about her too, it is an awfully long drive for someone to make by their self. Anyway, she seems like a very sweet girl, and if she is friends with my Mr.X, then she must be a wonderful person. I feel a bit more secure after meeting her, I guess that bit of secrecy that he had about her, and his other friends has been making me insecure, and now, I just feel better. Silly maybe, I don't know, but I do feel better.

My insecurity comes from things that I don't know. The things that I know I deal with most times in an appropriate manner, but the things I don't know, and wonder about are the things that I'm insecure about. Make sense? Maybe it stems from my need to be in control. I have this deep seeded need to be in control of most every situation, and when I have to hand over control, or am not in full control, it's hard for me to let someone else have control. And this is in most any situation. Maybe I need to learn to turn over control a little, but then that would entail finding someone to trust enough to turn control over to. Hmmm...I trust Mr.X, and he's in total control most of the time when we're together, but when I'm not with him, I have to have total control over every other aspect. Maybe I have trust issues!! I never thought of it that way before. I haven't found many trustworthy people other than my family. My ex-psycho wasn't trustworthy, he'd spend money that I'd give him to pay this bill or that, on something other than the bill. He lied, cheated, stole, did every untrustworthy thing imaginable.

Gawd! I've gotta stop. I am having a perfectly perfect day and I hope you all are too.

Did you do anything fun this weekend?

HeardLankaMalls 56M
2925 posts
3/20/2006 4:57 am

Glad you had a nice weekend K.

Mine involved going to work on Saturday, then chilling at home on Sunday.

Happy Monday

Hugs, C

1girlrevolution 48F

3/24/2006 8:31 am

I have found that I have to have control over MY life completely. I don't want to control others, just me. However, there are two places I want men to control me . . . on the dance floor and in bed. Oooo, I love that!


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