purdy37 44F
38 posts
5/11/2006 1:44 pm

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5/11/2006 11:02 pm


had an odd day today, things have happened the past couple of days and i seem to have ended back at the start.
was adamant that things would never be that way ever again, told myself to walk away and stay away, move forwards and move on with my life, leave all the confusion and uncertainty behind me. but for some reason i have alowed myself to return to a place that i know hurts.
fair enough it wasnt all out fault, we had a major player putting their boot in and making it bloody hard to keep anything real. but i know what i have to do and that is walk away, im confused as to why i cant seem to make it happen. its ok for a couple of weeks, we talk and its fine as mates, but then something happens and it goes further than that, back to the very start when it was good, but then something gets said, bring back things that have no place in either or our lives for so many reasons. cant let them go, we both know what has happened we both know that things have been so twisted and contorted by someone else, but that still doesnt make the hurt and distrust dissapear.
if you dont have trust you dont have much, i have always known that, and yet here i am thinking of going so far away with someone i cant bring myself to trust for alot of reasons.
dont know why the more i think the more confused i become, the more i want to scream and walk away, maybe it would be best all round if i just left and changed all contact details we have with each other? i dont know, will come to me i expect at some point soon i hope.

rm_Shortdogg65 52M
672 posts
5/11/2006 2:40 pm

Sounds like the heart and mind are on different pages right now. Those 2 can be a bitch to get in conjunction sometimes. Can be done though, just takes time and patience. Good luck. Shortdogg

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