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ptfreak 56M
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2/19/2006 12:04 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

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I ran off for a couple of beers after my daughter went to sleep. Don't know that life is any better. Just it's something I have to do every once in a while. I did the same thing last night. I think I had women coming up to me, but all I was interested in doing was playing PhotoHunt and drinking a Corona. I just wanted to be left alone. Or maybe I wanted to ignore women the way I felt ignored when I was a boy growing up.
It's not logical. I know.
And it's not fair unloading on someone who has nothing to do with the origins of my state of mind.
Of course the fear of the little boy too afraid to come up and ask a girl to dance, or a date, or who can't open his mouth to speak, he is so panicky inside. Although he can fake it a lot better now than then. A functional neurotic when it comes to women.
I love my life.....

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