Just 'cause...  

pchykeenwmn 64F
82 posts
5/7/2006 1:39 am

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Just 'cause...

How many of us have parts of our lives on hold,...in a state of suspension until...what?...waiting for a certain event before we do or allow ourselves to feel something?

We've bottled up a desire, suppressed a craving, exchanged a sense of passion for a level of contentment.

Well, I'm done with it.
Those empty pockets in my life are becoming too heavy to bear.

Just 'cause the sense of grief continues years after my fiance's death ~ don't think I'll wait to embrace life passionately, and with greater gratitude than before.

Just 'cause I'm a woman ~ don't think I'll wait for a man to speak first or make the first move.

Just 'cause my stomach's not flat and I have weight to lose ~ don't think I'll wait to celebrate and share my body's sensuality.

Just 'cause I'm over 50 ~ don't think I'll wait to refill my eyes with stars, my heart with hope, and my soul with song.

What are you waiting for?
What will it take to shake a guilt, a need for perfection, or a fear that keeps a part of your life on hold?

purplefroggie69 48F
30 posts
5/7/2006 7:08 am

I haven't figured out what it will take to finally let down all of my walls and be who and what I want to be.

Happy in marriage. Not happy with sex.

Spiritual, but do not have others to share it with...miss that fellowship.

So, when do I get to have good sex when will I find like minded spiritual people to share with...or when will I be brave enough to tell more people how I believe to hopefully find like minded individuals.

I don't know...how do you know...do I just tell my husband once and for all though I love him dearly I am going to look for my sexual satisfaction elsewhere?

Sex is not love to me and love is not sex...but I Feel guilty having sex with anyone else if my husband does not know...does that make any sense?

I hear you...and I am working on it...

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
5/7/2006 8:49 am

that's a good question. I'm in the middle of this myself to some extent. Having had several of those 'light bulb moments' one finds themselves slipping back into 'safe' routines so fast.

welcome to blogging, it might become another passion....


5/7/2006 12:38 pm

Welcome my friend..So happy to see you here.
You are asking all my questions to myself and I'm still trying to find the answers and think I may be closer.. then of course a there's always a door that closes... Now I decide to look for the window that opens..

It's a journey when you realize that all of your life you have been passive and wait..Now I have learned.. No more waiting... Live life and dance with it..

Great post...I can tell you have so much to offer us readers.. Looking forward to seeing you again Your so fun to talk to

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We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat

rm_jd29992z 55M
3888 posts
5/7/2006 9:02 pm

None of us are perfect God knows I am not. So like Shakespeare says "to your own self be true." welcome to the Blogs it is a very wonderful place weird sometimes but wonderful. Have fun and see you around! JD

SpaceRangerNJ 56M
4687 posts
5/8/2006 4:00 pm

MrsMuffLand sent me. She told me to mention discount code "Welcome to Blogville".

I'm trying to get on with life.
In a marriage that hasn't gone anywhere for a long time. It's why I'm here.
Looking for a sense of self. Knowing I deserve more and can get it.
Accepting me for how I am while continuing to improve. Knowing I don't have to be perfect to be accepted by myself or others.

Good luck with your journey.

runzwithknives 61F

5/13/2006 6:23 pm

I don't exactly know. Maybe the courage to move past the rejection that has come with all my failed relationships. And a good man to hold me thru it all...

MrsMuff sent me too. Welcome to Blogville. Hope you enjoy the ride


rm_mishawood 64M
2 posts
6/16/2006 1:54 am

My 2 cents - hope it's relevant.
Sometimes in my life I have been afraid to fly like Icarus - but look what happened to him!
Maybe his navigation was no good
So now I am on the verge of "boldly going where no man has gone before", the other side of the Urals to be precise. Having made a few mistakes along the way and carrying the tattoos to prove it, I hope that this will be the right choice, since time is running out.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained. "When you have nothing, you have nothing to lose". What I have _found_ is a woman in whom I have woken something that was dormant, latent.
In God we trust.

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