Of this and that!!!!!!  

ohcurious14 60M  
1208 posts
7/9/2006 9:06 am

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Of this and that!!!!!!

No I haven't disappeared. Yes I am ok. Yes i'm tired. No, I haven't forgotten about any of my blogging friends. Yes I am behind on blogs. My new job has got me in a funk, a good one. I love it, I just had a birthday Friday and been in the party/take a breather mode. I feel guilty not blogging. I am still working on getting my body used to 2nd shift. I'm constantly tweaking it and am making some progress. I have 2 cum on bloglands to do and am kinda having a writers block so to speak, but it will soon pass. THEN? LOOK OUT!!! Many other things are factored into all of this too.

I am going to share something with you all that i have kept private up until now. I wasn't going to ever bring this up but a blog post by Maggies's Wishes, [post 411954] changed all that. While my personal issue is much different than what she was talking about, It was her question in the end that really made me think. Her question was, What mask do you wear? Maggie!, for this I thank you sweetie.

Because of a divorce and the fact that my kids have only heard and know 1 side of the story (not mine),my kids age 24 & 17 and I have had very little contact. Why? They are bitter and think I am the bad guy. If they only knew. I have gone thru some very hard times since the divorce but it started on May 14th of last year when I moved out of the house. The ex put preconceived ideas in their head that I was leaving the state with another woman. Not true. It was thought of but I wouldn't and couldn't do that to my kids. The kids have been lied to in so many ways and it all has come with a price. And who gets to feel all the pain? Good ole me. Not once has my kids even asked for my side of the story and I have not offered it and I won't. Should they ask, then I will tell all. I have not spoken to my daughter since her birthday on April 5th. She had plans on that day and I wasn't going to stop her nor get in her way. I made arrangements to meet her the next day to bring her presents to her but came down with a 3 day flu bug and had to cancel. I called her back to reschedule and she never returned my phone calls. Yea it broke my heart too and it is heavy still. I've spoken to my son a couple 2 or 3 times but he is not one to return messages either. His personality is to procrastinate. I have never been one to pressure anyone and don't plan to on this either. My kids are young adults and are big enough to make their own decisions. While I do admit the contact on my part and their's has been lackluster, I decided to send them a letter stating that this lack of talk was unaccptable and that I wanted that to change. The letter was left with the ball in their court. I have gone thru 2 Father's Day's without a call from daughter or son. 2 birthday's with my daughter with no call or card, last years birthday with my son with no call or card but my son did call this year and boy did that ever feel good. He is working full time this summer at a local country club and has very little free time.
My son and I are meeting Tuesday for first time in over 2 months. I can't begin to tell you how ecstatic I am. I have no Idea what is going to happen with the daughter. I can only hope she comes around. Until that time comes, it leaves me drained emotionally but in hopes of a reconciliation. So this leads to the question Maggie asked in her blog post. What mask do you wear? In this case my mask hides the deep pain and the longing of my kids.

HBowt2 60F

7/9/2006 12:37 pm

i hope it works out with your son curious....if it does your daughter may follow....and then you can remove that mask....

ohcurious14 replies on 7/9/2006 11:39 pm:
I can only hope!!!

luckylady01961 56F
14 posts
7/9/2006 2:24 pm

Well good luck with meeting with your son, hopefully it won't be to long and the daughter will be wanting some contact too.

ohcurious14 replies on 7/9/2006 11:39 pm:
I hope you are right Lucky.

ButteryDelight 59F

7/9/2006 10:36 pm

I hope the meeting turns out well with your son, OhC, sir. It will take time but hopefully it will all work out for the good.

Buttery Delight

ohcurious14 replies on 7/9/2006 11:41 pm:
Thanks Buttery.

fancy_for_you 41F
3014 posts
7/9/2006 11:11 pm

HUGS to ya OC. I know this has been a sore spot for you and I hope it all gets worked out. You culd always adopt me as a fill in daughter....but that'd be kinda weird when it came to the sexual aspect of our knowing each other....lol.

Love ya,



ohcurious14 replies on 7/9/2006 11:44 pm:
Thanks sweetie. Fill in daughter? Hmmmm let me think about that. lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalaalalalalalalala!!!!!

Hey you know me, i'm game!!! LOL

rm_nicesmile04 55F
32 posts
7/10/2006 7:00 am

It is great that your son has finally made some contact and i do hope everything works out for you and i am sure your daughter will come around as well.

ohcurious14 replies on 7/10/2006 10:09 am:
I hope so too Nicesmile. Ty sweetie.

Mistress_Nessa 41F

7/10/2006 8:37 am

Ohc, I know this is a hard thing you've been dealing with for quite a while, but the fact that your son is willing to meet you is perhaps a sign that all of this will be over soon. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and i hope that everything works out!

~ Nessa ~

ohcurious14 replies on 7/10/2006 10:10 am:
Thanks Nessa

rm_PeanutJackie 37F
1286 posts
7/10/2006 8:47 am

Happy Belated Birthday! Glad to hear it left you exhausted

Best of luck with your son on Tuesday. I'll keep my fingers crossed that everything works out in the best possible way for you all.


"I am beautiful no matter what you say, words can't bring me down. So don't you bring me down today."

ohcurious14 replies on 7/10/2006 10:10 am:
Thanks Peanut!!!

wickedeasy 68F  
31113 posts
7/10/2006 12:11 pm

hang tight

eventually your children will see the reality

and you will be right there, waiting for them


You cannot conceive the many without the one.

sunshinekzn 59F

7/24/2006 3:31 am

I wear a different mask everyday.... I am battling with depression and I hate it. I want to be this friendly, happy person making everyone around me happy. I do find it hard going at he moment! But I am a good listener and a shoulder to cry on if you need!

ohcurious14 replies on 7/24/2006 11:54 pm:
How very kind of you Sunshine ty sweetie.

rm_mydeal1970 48F

7/25/2006 9:02 am

If you were my dad Id hide too

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