Sex and Me.  

noordinarychic2 49F
510 posts
3/29/2006 6:43 am

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3/31/2006 7:44 am

Sex and Me.


So I hit 35 and someone -- guessing I'll give my creator credit for this one -- flicked a switch. Never in my life was I as sexual a being as i am now. What happened? Biology I'm sure has a lot to do with it....but I'm thinking too that my journy into sex...yeah for all my "i want a relationship...no "meaningless sex" etc I've had one of those....the one relationship that opened my eyes sexually....the one where you got to do just about everything you'd ever fantasized about or wondered about....now the good part of that was that I found out a lot about my body...what it liked...what it didn't etc.... the bad part -- well i wonder if some of my resistence to relationships or more to the point...my resistence to starting a sexual relationship is my fear that it won't match up.....that i won't find that craziness again. the fear that letting go will be the journy into pain that it was.....walking away from that relationship was like kicking a really bad habit. I was addicted...addicted to his touch..addicted to his body....just plain addicted.... i could never get enough . even now I wonder if he waltzed back into my life....would I say no? or would I be like my girlfriend in the previous entries.... go back with (in this case) my body in tow.... offering it up with no shame just to feel that crazy heat build again?
Probably...no definitely not a good idea! so i just keep waiting and believing that the guy with it all....is out there.... sad though....why do i have to be this way and have this thing about wanting more? life would be a lot easier if i just said...."fuck it" and became someone's affair.....lol.... btw -- the mood...i'm hungry but not for food........

rm_remodman3 51M
128 posts
3/29/2006 11:32 am

HHHmmmm, Thought provoking.
Sounds like you need to work out a few details.


midwestboy1972 45M
659 posts
3/29/2006 3:03 pm

Keep the faith. He is out there And probably waiting to be found. And just think of how satisfied you'll be when you find him!


noordinarychic2 49F
242 posts
3/29/2006 3:07 pm

and that my friend is the beauty of life....you can always "work out the details"!!


rm_remodman3 51M
128 posts
3/29/2006 4:26 pm

You are increasing my curiousity about you NOC2.

I find myself, wanting to know you better.

Tell me a little more, but not too much. Some of the things I already know have peaked my interest.
But, and there always is, I would not want you to do something your not ready for.
I believe in being prepared. Running senerios through my head all the time, to whatever life might throw at me, and knowing the benefits and the consequences of my actions.
When to act and when not to.

Can you "hear" the caution. Not for myself, but for you.
Being horny pushes a lot of endorphins into ones mind, wanting to feel the rush, the high that a damn good orgasm does to us all.
Careful, me lady.


fantasylover_05 63M

3/30/2006 7:53 am

Hungry is GOOD!!

It is wonderful to discover our bodies... what feels good.. what we enjoy.... and once you do... with the right guy you can then TELL HIM those things that bring you such pleasure!!

Be open to things and you will be pleasantly surprised...


noordinarychic2 49F
242 posts
3/30/2006 5:40 pm

Caution is definitely the name of the game guys.....it would be very easy to say "fuck it"...make a phone call or two....and the dry spell....over. But then the morning comes and i'm left with that empty hollow feeling of still being alone.....and so when the hormones rage and the engine is in overdrive...i remind myself of that....but i often wonder if a happy median could be found....somewhere between serious relationship and fuck buddy????


rm_remodman3 51M
128 posts
3/30/2006 9:31 pm

Doubtful.
There is always good, better, best in my presentations.
This is a good window, this is a better door, this is the best roof.
Which one do you want?
The woman always says the best.
The man always says the good.
But no one ever picks the better.
Better always feels like the middle child, because it is.
One analogy of how I can look at things.


sassybelle21 34F  
13313 posts
3/31/2006 3:37 am

If you're going to wait, I'll wait together with you


noordinarychic2 49F
242 posts
3/31/2006 7:44 am

sassy...i'm waiting girl!! and i would love to have you wait with me.... luv ya chic!!


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