Lonely Lonely Me  

noordinarychic2 49F
510 posts
7/20/2006 9:51 pm

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7/21/2006 10:14 pm

Lonely Lonely Me


So tonight I'm lonely...and its my own damn fault. I slipped last night...I played "house" with the best friend. I spent the afternoon with him...went to work...went back to his apt...got greeted with "hi baby...how was your night...you look tired...he rubbed my feet...watched movies...he held me... there wasn't any sex (fuck a duck...lol ) but we did a damn good job of playing mr and mrs.... but tonight... i'm back at my townhouse... alone.. feeling lonely.. wishing it was last night. Why do I do this to myself? I know what the real situation is.. and still I let myself slip into that "pretend" world... it just feels so right and so good ... but i should know what the end feelings will be... how lonely i'll be in the end.. and yet he needs me... i'm there. i put everything on hold...and he does these things that just keep me hoping and wishing. Need some examples... well calling it "our bed" or tellin me to call "home"... or taking care of a bill i was a little short on... etc and honostly half the time I don't think he even realizes what he says... and i am not the clingy, hope beyond hope, doormat type EXCEPT with him. I almost am glad in a way that he is moving... that way I may actually finally get this boy out of my system...because until i do...face it... a REAL relationship isn't going to be possible..... smiles and hugs despite it all... NOC2

midwestboy1972 45M
659 posts
7/21/2006 3:55 am

So sorry sweetie. Just remember you are loved and there's a bright sunny day ahead for you


noordinarychic2 49F
242 posts
7/21/2006 10:14 pm

Don't I know it...about the bright sunny days thanks for the hugs... hugs are a marvelous thing aren't they? even in the cyber world they make you feel good!


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