A Few Steps Back  

noordinarychic2 49F
510 posts
8/16/2006 6:30 am

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8/19/2006 10:56 am

A Few Steps Back

So I took a few baby steps backwards this am....dammit I was doing so well!! I'm not a patient chic by any means so this "it gonna take some time" shit...not good for me!! LOL I started thinking about his birthday...how this year will be so much different then last...and yep before you know it...i'm wiping away the tears wondering how it all got to this point. Good thing was it didn't last too long....but still...I can't wait for the day to come when I can think about all the good (and there was a lot of good) without having to break out the kleenexes. The day will come I'm sure....until then....well...I remind myself that HE is not my life...never has been, never will be. And that I am worth so much more.....and one day....or at least my ego and pride hope so...he will realize that he threw away something very valuable...me.

rm_rubie80 37F
245 posts
8/16/2006 6:59 am

and very special you are too.......

vaperv4pussy 49M

8/16/2006 8:30 am

I feel for you. I have had a similar issue for, believe it or not...15 or so years. I still think of her first thing in the morning and any little thing reminds me of her. We had an on again off again "relationship" for about 5-6 years (15 years ago!). Great sex, great friendship. The two companies that we worked for shared a building, so in effect we worked together, always a no-no. She has since been through two marriages, moved out of state and has "moved on". We stayed loosely in touch, a phone call now and then, an emailed joke etc. I made the mistake of seeing her a couple of weeks ago when I was in her area on business. OMG!What a mistake! It all come rushing back to me, stupidly, I told her and she freaked out! Pretty much told me to stay out of her life forever. Now I've even ruined a friendship. Oh well. I must move on, as difficult as you know it is. Good luck to you.

luvlee_j1 48F

8/16/2006 1:32 pm

...hang in there dear

midwestboy1972 45M
659 posts
8/16/2006 1:47 pm

I'm sorry sweetie, but that upswing is right around the corner!

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