Where do I go from here?  

nobodysgirl70 46F
5 posts
6/22/2006 6:24 am

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6/22/2006 9:06 am

Where do I go from here?

Ive been so sad and so depress lately that I spent lots of time online. I got so sad being alone but Im scared to date for real, LOL. I may sound so silly but thats what really happening to me for more than two months. I just came from a traumatic relationship that I find it hard to trust men again. I came online here on AdultFriendFinder watching women's and couples cam. Geezzzz!! I didnt know I have this bi curious tendencies not until I got so extremely hurt by my a man. I was not able to finish what has to be done with my career cause I always got so grumpy and always not in the mood. At night when Im not online and no one to talk I cried a lot thinking about Chris (my ex bf). I feel like just merely existing and not actually living.

I dont have a pc at home so I look for a private cafe where I can have fun and cum while interact with other people here. I admit Im forgetting everything everytime I play with myself on cam. I feel like Im not alone cause theres a lot whole bunch of people in every part of the world there who seem lonely and bored like me. But then I asked myself where do I go from here? I cant spend my whole lifetime sulking and spending time online to forget my pain and heartaches. I guess I had to face reality and the fact that I need to go on with my life without the man I learned to love so much. I cant get him out on my system that easy. I think I have to do it gradually and let the love I have for him die naturally. For now, Im a nobodysgirl, and maybe someday when the right time came I will be somebodys girl and then I will never be alone and will finally find the heart who will be my home.. forever.

Kaliedascope61 43M
4084 posts
6/22/2006 7:07 am

just blog until your ready.

nighthawkaw2006 49M

6/22/2006 7:15 am

hun dont be scared .if it bothers you so much and you find some one ask a friend if you can go on a double date first so you have the suport of a friend there , i know what you mean about cyber sex hun for that brief moment you feel that some one wants you but after your depressed again your such a beautiful lady you should have no problems , becouse of my job i dont get time to socialse so for a while i cybered and for special ladies i still do now and then but dont be depressed if you want to talk please contact me myyahoo id is my name on here ok hun hugz andy

buddhamike 107M
7006 posts
6/22/2006 7:35 am

Finding the next fortunate guy and spending time with him may just prove to be the best way to get over the last guy. Sitting alone you aren't finding any good moments to help fill the void. Yeah, there are lots of guys out there that aren't worth your time, and will hurt you. But then what are you going to do, become a recluse? When you get thrown, you have to get back up on the horse!! The sooner the better.

rm_madred006 46M
438 posts
6/22/2006 10:33 am

hi i dont know wat happened but if its byond fixing u must move on time is someting we must cherish wat we do with it is up to us but like buddha above dont let it stagnate it will eat u up best of luck were not all bad ,welcome to blogland

nighthawkaw2006 49M

6/25/2006 8:43 am

dont worry hun when your ready you will know and when that time comes men will be faling at your feet you seam a very nice lady and atractive of what i can see so dont worry

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