newfornow22 34F
270 posts
2/14/2006 4:56 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


Hello, darlings. I have had a rough day, and actually a very rough year, or two or three, but this is still the day of love. And I am not lacking love. I am very fortunate to have all the love around me that I do. I hope you all are as lucky as me.
My ex called today and set out to make me feel terrible about today and myself, which is a pretty usual occurrence, but I told him nothing would bring me down today. Told him to fire it off and say what he had called to say, all the mean and hurtful things he could think of then listen to me laugh and hang up. Who would be the big person then I asked him. He didn't have alot to say after that and I laughed anyways and hung up.
Lydia called me this morning drunk, at not even 9 a.m she leaves tomorrow. And she said she loved me always would always did, but she still was leaving, she still wanted a baby, and she still thought it was what she really wanted in the end. When I commented that she was drunk and that at 9 a.m some people would say she had a problem she remarked "I'm not drunk because I'm doing this, it's because of doing this I am drunk!"
I carefully told her I was afraid she might be unstable and she hung up.
I don't know what she meant by that comment but I am positive that she knows she is making the wrong decision and she is afraid. I called her back and left a message on her phone. Just that I loved her and took her how she was and that my arms were always open no matter what she did. I promised I would be there to see her off. And hung up.
As hard as this situation is, I feel at peace about it, because I know I have done what I can and done the right thing. I can walk away from this intact and with my head high because I didn't compromise my self and was the bigger person, both with my ex and Lydia.
Love is such a vulnerable place to be. And some times I think I would rather just not, but I cannot chose simply not to love, I was born loving, I already had a big family and alot of people that loved me. And then as I was being raised more people came into my life that I love and there is no way out of that. My little sisters were born when I was 9 and 10 and I love them like my very own, and protect them fiercely.
So yeah, love is inescapable, painful at time's, yes. But worth it? Absolutely.
I've never really lost by loving.
have a wonderful day! and even if your alone like me, your still damn lucky to be loved

Guy1378Fox 47M

2/14/2006 8:36 pm

I admire your strength. You seem to face so many difficult things without being thrown off your pace. That is a lesson I have not learned yet.

rm_euridiocy 62M
638 posts
2/14/2006 11:49 pm

Liv, If ever there was a justifiable arguement for human cloning, with sentiments like yours, you're it. I can't help but think that with your demeanor, grip of reality and philosophies the world would be a much improved place if there were more people like you. Much and many mega hugs and best wishes for your future endeavours.

rm_KnowStuff 57M
240 posts
2/15/2006 12:06 am

Love does not die easily.
It is a living thing.
It thrives in the face
of all life's hazards,
save one--neglect.
~ by James Bryden ~

166 posts
2/15/2006 6:13 pm

Hey girl,,,Life brings ups and downs when it comes to love. Just keep your head up. Because most things in life happen for a reason.It may not seem that way right now,,but in time it will.Good luck and have a nice day..

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