albatross around my neck  

nerdiest 35M
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5/14/2006 9:48 pm

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5/14/2006 9:48 pm

albatross around my neck

Am I some sort of weirdo? I figure that to some degree I must be. I'm more comfortable in front of a computer than just about anywhere else. I've had relatively little interest in women, and even less in men. And yet I'm 24, in the supposed peak of my physical condition (ha), and I have this fucking albatross hanging around my neck. Anyone of my age, with my limited, scratch that... no experience, must have some severe social akwardness issues to deal with. I suppose I figure it is just so much easier not to deal with shit, so I don't. I don't make the effort to meet people, I don't go out all that often. And I suppose I don't want to be rejected so I just remove myself from all such situations before they can occur.

So far, I'm quite sure I've been going about things the wrong way. The real question is, am I still misguided in my efforts? Is a quick NSA lay the answer to my problem? The short answer is , Yes, absolutely. The sexual release of years of repressed bullshit, not having to invest hours and hours into building a relationship with someone I really don't care about, getting the damn virginity-monkey off my back, (that is ironically trying to hump me and then throw shit at me). This is seriously all that I want for now. I don't think of myself as a selfish person, but for once I want something. And I want to give just as much as I want to get. I get the feeling that this site really isn't for me, but who knows.

rm_miniaxis 37F
53 posts
5/14/2006 11:05 pm

Firstly welcome

I couldn't help but smile reading your blog.
I mean that with the utmost respect read my blog and you will get what I mean.
All I can say about virginity is what I've been told and that's once your okay with it it no longer becomes a monkey and without a hairy ape on your back your prospects should brighten up.

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