need2havfun76 41M
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1/23/2006 5:41 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


What to do? What to do?
I have the Monday Blues

Nothing comes to mind so I'll babble a little.
I'll spend some time reading other blogs and commenting as is my want.

Not many hours working right now. I should probably find a part time job to pick up the slack. My luck, the slack will pick up as soon as my picky ass finds a part time job I'm willing to do. Which means, my main job takes priority, I lose the part time and soon when there is a slack again, I won't get hired back part time. But I won't know unless I try.

Anyone have good experiences working out of your house? Maybe I'll look into something like that. I don't have the initiative to go freelance on what I normally do.

Too much free time on my hands, and I don't want to do anything to enjoy it. I'm seeling myself inside my house. Going out for mountain dew and other shopping essentials. That and when my wife drags me out of the house. Which is a rare occasion since she is, more often than not, a self proclaimed hermit.

questions to ask myself. questions I don't want to answer. i fear the answers. some questions I can't answer. those i don't worry about so much, but the fear is there all the same, waiting for when I can, but won't answer them.

It's tough to live life like this. Hiding from yourself. Hiding from those around you. Hiding from those you love.

I can hide here for a time. But I don't know how long. Sooner or later, I'll find myself again. I may not like what I see. I don't know if I'll be able to deal with it. For now...I'm safe. I'm hidden.

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