My Mistakes... :(  

JeersPilarSaver 36F
1726 posts
5/5/2006 11:58 pm

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5/9/2006 6:04 am

My Mistakes... :(

i thought i know quite many kind of men already
i know how bastards a man can be and how awesome a man can act...
i thought i've been long enough here to know about at least what's gonna happen from this kind of site..
i thought i can at least know a bit about someone after we talk quite long
i thought im already picky enough and careful enough to protect myself...
but i never thought i can still feel so shocked
to know what kind of men i met...
i never thought i'll feel like a slut
i never thought i can feel like this, feeling so dirty..
i thought i appreaciate myself enough..
but i never thought that i keep hurting myself
i thought i can stop thinking about it this morning..
but i cant since it keep fucking with my mind..
, i cant since i dunno how to get rid of this feeling...
i thought since i have enough problem in my life, i wont add some more
i just never thought it will just occur...with a good start bfore it went bad...
i thought i know myself well enough
i thought i can always act better than most people
but im not.
im not...
just hope i can repeat that day, but just like usual, guilt and sorry will always come the last right???

just need to let out my feelings here, im gonna take more time to learn about me then...
*sigh* gosh....scary experience !!

Babel__Fish 46F

5/6/2006 12:40 am



chasingfun27 39M
1108 posts
5/6/2006 12:44 am

Sorry it's like that for you.

rm_abutoo2 45M
1078 posts
5/6/2006 12:46 am


cobra70118 106M

5/6/2006 12:53 am


You take care of yourself mystic.

JeersPilarSaver 36F

5/6/2006 1:14 am

dear Babel_Fish
*hugs* u back. thanks

dear chasingfun27
*hugs* u back.....i really nee more and more hugs

dear abutoo2
wow..?? as in "wow, thats bad!" or as in "wow, nice blog?" hehehehe

dear cobra70118
another hugs...yay!! *hugs* u back....thank u, i will take care of myself cobra

rm_LoyalCumpany 47M
3204 posts
5/6/2006 8:36 am

Mystic, I'm sorry you had a scary experience. Just keep a smile on your face and be careful.

Now, if we could only get you a visa or something....{=}

I am JoJo the Circus Boy!

rm_LoyalCumpany 47M
3204 posts
5/6/2006 4:14 pm

Hey mystic, I know this is a completely inappropriate time for this, but if you'd go to sexydisaster's blog for me and [post 331771], you'd be helping me out!

I am JoJo the Circus Boy!

JeersPilarSaver 36F

5/7/2006 1:20 am

dear loyalcumpany
hmm thanks for concern about me. yeah...will keep smiling!
visa??hmmm r u planning to marry me ,lol
and yep, already go to sexydisaster's blog!

cobra70118 106M

5/7/2006 10:14 am

Good answer mystic.

It was better to have a scary experience rather than a tragic experience.

There's nothing wrong with you. Nothing to feel guilty about. Don't put up with the bs or the hidden agendas. Your lovely the way you are.

Stay well...

JeersPilarSaver 36F

5/7/2006 6:03 pm

dear cobra70118
yes ure trying to get rid of this guilty feeling, although a bit hard.
thanks again, ummm can i ask for another hugs??

cobra70118 106M

5/8/2006 6:51 am


of coarse

The feeling will pass. Promise. You did nothing wrong and you need to hear that.

My children are grown. It will be difficult for you not to find a great guy to have children with. In the meantime, salt bath with heaps of bubbles. And *hugs* again...

JeersPilarSaver 36F

5/8/2006 7:56 am

dear cobra70118
wuahhh *hugssssss u sooo tightttt* thank U

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