this time it worked  

msharleygurl 43F
125 posts
1/18/2006 7:51 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

this time it worked

Had another chance to do the whole "stranger in the house" thing the other night...but this time it worked better cause i didn't hear him come in the house or up the stairs. I had some music going on my computer and had it fairly loud so that I could hear it in the bedroom while I was laying in bed waiting for darganot to get there. I didn't hear him come in the house or up the stairs, I sensed him come into the room and still just laid there waiting to see what he would do. He came further into the room and started to rub my leg. My heart was going wild again, just like last time. I guess after that I turned off the game in my mind, but he didn't, which was cool. He didn't say a word, just touched me where he knows I love him to touch me. The only time he really said anything was when he was holding my arms down (which I wanted him to do) and told me I could struggle all I wanted, he wasn't letting me up until he got what he wanted. And ohhh did he get what he wanted. I got what I wanted too.

There are things that I am not afraid of trying with him because I know I can trust him enough to know how much I can handle and what I can't handle. I have a real issue with giving up control, because I had that control taken away from me a long time ago. He makes it easy for me to do. I like being under his power cause he's not mean or cruel about it. He knows just the right buttons to push and how far to push me. Maybe I will learn to trust someone that much again, but its enough for my confidence level to be able to do it now with him.

piamatter 45F

1/18/2006 8:35 pm

Thats always been a fantasy of mine as well. What luck to have come across the perfect partner to play with.

rm_Smile_My_Way 60M
1519 posts
1/18/2006 8:44 pm

Things can be fun when you are not in complete control. It seems to be easier for you to do this when you are pretending. This seems to be a good start for you. That's how we build up trust for one and other. Controlling someone completely will result into no trust at all. Sorry you had your control taken away before. Both should be equal in making any decisions. Hope this makes some sence. I'm a little tired.

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