about him  

milady_de_winter 45F
938 posts
7/24/2006 4:01 am

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7/24/2006 10:30 pm

about him

if only he knew how i felt,
if only he knew the pain he gives me,
if only he knew how hurt i feel when he takes his time to get back to me,
if only he knew how used i felt when he fucked me without a condom,
if only he knew how angry i felt with all his lies and deceptions,
if only he knew how sick i feel with his stingy ways,
if only he knew how much i was willing to give for him,
if only he knew that i care for him and would do anything for him,
if only he knew how fat and old and ugly he actually was and that the other women only fucked him for the expectation of making money out of him- and that i was genuine about him,
if only he knew that i liked him for him and not his stinking wallet,
if only he knew that i cared,
if only he knew how hurt i feel whenever he fucking lies,
if only he knew the sensual joy he has stirred in me,
if only he knew how i truly felt inside,
if only he appreciated me,
if only he knew how i just feel like cutting him out of my life,
if only he knew i am getting sick sick sick of him,
if only he knew that i know he has been in KL this month but delibaretly avoided me so that he could fuck others,
if only he knows.....

just a ranting to ease my tension

f0ru28 46M

7/24/2006 5:55 am

You seem really intelligent and interesting ! , and it is really sad to see someone as seemingly intelligent and interesting as yourself fall into such despair....a wise man once said "There never was, there never will be, nor is there now, a person who is wholly blamed, or wholly praised"...he also said "all things are not-self, when one sees this with wisdom, one turns away from suffering", so be strenous, resolute and become wise, and do not neglect your own welfare. Besides, better it is to live one day seeing seeing the rise and fall of things than to live a hundred years without ever seeing the rise and fall of things. I hope you feel better soon.

rm_2spunkE 42M
52 posts
7/24/2006 7:32 am

get out and walk!
feel the fresh air!
feel it lighten your heavy head!
life does not revolve around him!
not your life anyway!
life is too short and sweet,
to be spent ranting,
at least lets not rant,
about him who fucks others!
for a start,
i wanna worry,
bout the many more women,
who may wanna meet me but haven't,
he he he he
it all starts with a decision,
we decide to live happy.
just that!

LeninRuntsBurrs 43F

7/24/2006 4:11 pm

Milady, always remember this, of all the ten lousy fellas that comes in and out of well, "our lives", there are one or two that is worth our time and sweet as hell and wonderful! Remember Sunday night date?

Well I have met one and he is wonderful and I kissed for the first time in my life. It was wonderful. And these encounters makes me forget the past morons I met. I also know a very sweet fella now and think it is good but shall leave it at there first.

Take care and be well!

IviesBidesJuste 56M
3658 posts
7/24/2006 7:37 pm

Things in life happen like this. Don't let it get you down. There will always be a few "bumps" in the road of life. Your much too smart to be treated like that. I think he could've at least called you or met with you at least once. If he prefers dating several people and not just one, he should have been open and honest about it from the start.

But look at the positive side, there is always better out there. Make friends and have patience, it will be worth it.

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