TWO but not TWO...  

masha63 54F
37 posts
4/9/2006 1:04 pm

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4/19/2006 10:21 am

TWO but not TWO...

Two but not two ... this is my formula for intimate relationships.

Like a bicycle that need two pedals moving one up, one down to keep a perfect equilibrium, but bond together with the same purpose of moving forward ... or reaching destinations...
Purpose in life is everything ... sharing goals and visions is crucial for keeping moving forward with excitement and challenges on the way ... to discover deeply and deeply each other strengths and weakness. ... to balance each other.

Two but not two ... remaining true to yourself and bringing someone else with you on your way to life ... knowing that sometime your partner in your discovery journey, will in tourn bring you along when you'll need that push to keep going. He/she will challenge you ... he/she will lead you ... he/she will fallow ... he/she will be so fascinating and imperfect ... he/she will expand everyday and free to change him/her ... a freedom that can only come from imperfection.

I run away from getting married 3 times in my life (and literally just before getting married) ... my 3rd time was my 'perfect' dream man. I was so happy!! It was so perfect and beautiful and perfect and wise and perfect and caring and perfect and embracing and perfect and spicy and perfect and sexy and perfect and courageous and perfect and protective and perfect and supportive and perfect and trustworthy and perfect and compassionate and perfect and happy and perfect and .....

What I was doing there?
What did he need me for?
What was there for me to challenge?
We were one:
it was too perfect ... nothing for me to worry about...
nothing for me to fear ... nothing for me to transform...
nothing for me to discover ... no mystery ... nothing for me...
nothing to expand into ... no excitement to fulfil ... and my sexuality died with it...

The perfection made me run ... run ... run ... claustrophobic and confused... I realise... I do not like perfection ... that why I'm human and not a 'God' ... and I prefer to be human ... perfectly imperfect ... so I'd love my partner to be perfectly imperfect too.
That day my life change... I was free of myths and illusions... I discovered my true self as a free spirited being and as a women: I knew what not to wish for anymore in life.

Happy to be me.

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
4/10/2006 3:55 pm

gud post

thx 4 sharing, welcome to blogging

masha63 54F

4/11/2006 5:29 am

Thank You for Your welcome GoddessOfTheDawn ...

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