wash day  

mary1025 48F
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4/16/2006 5:05 am
wash day

im so thankful for the friends im making on this site
i cant believe the heart felt comments, it gives me strength
i just spent three hours listening to my ex paint me
into a hopeless corner, preach, lecture, threaten
the gun to my head, having my kids this week
im at the mercy of a man without mercy for me
he glowed like the grinch when he thought without
presents or feasts, there would be no christmas
i remained strong, knowing if i rode the storm out
hed back down, im their mother, i'll find a way
radio flyer on the loose, talk to me goose
the system may believe his lies, my kids know, they were there
i compare the last years to vietnam, which might offend vets
but i never knew when id be attacked, i never saw it coming
today i heard every mistake i made in our marriage again
ive been out of his house, soon to be, four years
i made plenty, we were never one, especially after saying i do
i do what? accept being treated with disrespect and distain?
after we were married he began punishing me
what kind of man? not even like a parent, but like he owned me
who gave him the right? thats not marriage, thats not love
for better or for worse, shit, he says i rejected God
when i left, i say before God and man i had every right
i left his house today with i can have the kids this week
but the hell i went through, who gave this man more authority?
had i called the cops once, this wouldve been a different story
i left hugging the kids outside alone, first my daughter
i'll see you tomorrow i said, she went inside happy
then my son, you owe me i said, no way he said grinning
yeah way i said, what i just went through, he just smiled


ProtonicMan 49M

4/16/2006 2:14 pm

Mary,

Your kids do know. They won't forget. And there may come a time when they choose to be with you over him.

You left a place that wasn't safe for you. Rejected God? No way. HE did that, when he disrespected you. You did the right thing. Don't ever believe anyone who says otherwise, especially him.

The only thing you HAVE to do on this earth is BE YOURSELF. Sounds to me like you are heading the right direction.

TJ


MichiganGuy62 56M
25 posts
4/18/2006 11:34 am

I agree, I have been throught this and now the kids are all adults, they figured it all out.MichiganGuy62


mary1025 48F

4/23/2006 2:08 am

you know what i didnt have figured out?
last night heard on tv vietnam is a country
not a war, that blew me away, and im glad


darcon71 46M

4/24/2006 7:37 pm

the gun to my head you say
no ammo left time running out
you are bullet proof anyway
cards on the table or aces in his hole
the grinch grinned to out of his pleasure
the lord was being served it is obvious
in this case is was exactly as i view
the commandment of taking God's name in vanity
God damn I wish i could kick his ass
God damn I wish he couldn't take away
the 8 and 9 year old kids
thank God they will be 13 soon
thank God you are stong enough to
not allow him to be your judge
have faith, hope for the best, be happy


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